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Run On and See What the End Gonna Be

Cheryl is a poet, freelance writer, author, and former newspaper columnist. She has degrees in Psychology and Biblical studies

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Keep moving

Hebrews 12:1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off every encumbrance and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with endurance the race set out for us.
This scripture is at least one that is the inspiration for a phrase I’ve heard often from the pulpit. “Run on and see what the end gonna be.” This is not proper grammar but the point gets across that we should keep on moving. This old adage took on a special meaning for me during my husband’s last 8 months before he passed away. Michael had been doing something that I had not realized until it was pointed out to me after he died. I was told that he had learned to function within dysfunction, keep moving and not complain through the pain. Often when I asked how he felt he would say, “ I’m fine.” I asked him not to use those 2 words because that’s what my mother often said shortly before she died. He would then tell me he was good or OK when he clearly was not. Even so, he kept moving on.


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The revelation

On July 4 of 2020, my husband celebrated birthday number 62. My daughter and her children came over that morning and brought him gifts. Later in the day, I gave him several presents from our youngest son and myself. He was like a big kid and so appreciative. Our oldest son was the last to give his dad a birthday gift and he also left him a big T bone steak. That evening around 5 I put the steak n the grill and the two of us sat on the back patio. At around 7:30 he decided to walk to the store and then to visit a friend who lived nearby, Michael had to use a cane and stopped frequently because his legs would hurt, Om the way home a scripture came to mind when we were about 2 blocks from the house. John 11:16 Then Thomas (also known as Didymus) said to the rest of the disciples, "Let us also go, that we may die with him." The disciples knew that the Jewish leaders in Jerusalem wanted to kill Jesus and It was dangerous for Him to go there. Even so, Thomas decided they should support Him no matter how things turned out. As this scripture came to mind I perceived that I should keep walking with my husband and see what the end was going to be. Later that night we took another walk and looked at the fireworks and again John 11:16 came to mind.I did not however catch the full gravity of it until now.

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The end

For the next 8 months, there were doctor appointments, ER visits and stays at 2 hospitals. One of them was an hour and a half away. The week after my spouse left the local hospital they shut down all visitation and I was thankful that I was able to see him every day. I was also grateful that through all of this that neither my husband nor I or our immediate family members were infected with COVID. When doctors said he could come home I spent close to $300.00 getting things in place. Unfortunately, my husband passed only 2 weeks after returning to our house. The journey was difficult but I remained hopeful that he would recover as he had many times before. This time it was not to be and my husband is now with Jesus.

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Complete the journey

Michael Lynn Preston Sr. ran his race, fought a good fight and finished his course. I was honored to be there beside him. During those last 8 months, I prayed, fasted, read the Bible, and cried out to my Heavenly Father like never before. Always in the past, Michael came through every health challenge simply by telling doctors "No thank you," "I don't think so" or "I know Jesus for myself." He was delivered from pneumonia, heart failure, Afib, a heart attack, a kidney infection, a drop in heart enzymes, and a decreased heart output fracture. His vision was even restored somewhat after a decrease due to diabetes. He came off of a ventilator and began breathing on his own. When a nurse suggested he might be brain dead after a stroke, he woke up the next day. He fought until there was no more fight in him and then he was gone. I had no idea that July 4, 2020, would be the last birthday he would celebrate on this earth. I'm thankful to have shared his journey as he ran on to see what the end would be. I'm glad I walked with him as the disciples walked with Christ until the very last. Whatever you may be dealing with, trust Jesus and keep moving forward until your journey is complete.

This content is accurate and true to the best of the author’s knowledge and is not meant to substitute for formal and individualized advice from a qualified professional.

© 2021 Cheryl E Preston

Comments

Sp Greaney from Ireland on April 06, 2021:

This is such a lovely tribute to your husband. He really did overcome a lot. He was a very strong man. It's good that ye got to spend so much time together towards the end.

Readmikenow on April 06, 2021:

A very touching article. I am sorry for your loss. I am happy that you were able to travel through your time in this world with someone who you loved and loved you. The faith of you and your husband are an inspiration.

Pamela Oglesby from Sunny Florida on April 04, 2021:

I love the pictures of you and your husband, Cheryl. I am so sorry that he passed away. As a nurse I saw many people improve, and then they p.assed away. I am not sure why it happened that way.

You two were married a long time. I am so sorry for your loss, Cheryl. As you were both Christians, you now where he is now. My condolences as well. My prayers are with you.

Cheryl E Preston (author) from Roanoke on April 04, 2021:

Peggy thank you so much. I appreciate your kind words.

Peggy Woods from Houston, Texas on April 04, 2021:

Hi Cheryl,

It sounds like your husband had a sincere belief in God as you do and also great stamina. You were with him all the way. May you be comforted in knowing he is now in a better place and pain-free. I know you must still miss him, however. Please accept my sincere condolences to you and the rest of your family.

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