There's a Ghost in My Room
My life has been a string of strange experiences; an ever-expanding collection of odd, impossible happenings that over time I've come to accept as normal.
After all, if your life is always strange, then in a way, strangeness becomes normal. Strangeness is your baseline.
What feels truly strange to people with strange lives are extended periods of normality.
I've had a few of those too, but not as many, it seems, as most people.
My strange experiences started in early childhood, with white figures that would appear beside my bed. These figures were shaped like people, but were featureless, kind of like brightly lit globs of white mist.
When I would wake and see them I'd be so terrified I'd scream for my parents with all my might. One of them would come running in and turn on the lights, and of course by that time nothing would be there.
This happened night after night.
I took to sleeping with my bedcovers over my head, but it didn't help. I'd still wake late at night feeling something slowly pulling the covers down to my feet. When I opened my eyes, there would be the white shiny thing again. So I just had to suck it up and get used to it, or else be in trouble with my folks all the time.
Sometimes after these beings would visit me I would fall back asleep and have vivid dreams of flying around the neighborhood with them. I didn't look at them, as that tended to freak me out, but I did check out the streets below.
During these nocturnal flights, I accurately saw features of homes and yards I had never visited in neighborhoods I'd never been. When on occasion my parents would drive past these places in the car I'd point them out and explain that I'd seen them on these night trips.
They told me I had "an overactive imagination," which was what parents said back then when their kids said crazy stuff they didn't believe. It didn't feel like my imagination but what did I know?
In some ways, being a kid is the worst. It really is.
Dogged by the Virgin Mary
Once I started school, I had a better grip on my nighttime fears, but the strangeness did not go away.
One day, I was waiting on the front porch for a neighborhood friend who used to walk to school with me.
I peeked into his front window, and there, standing in the middle of the room, was the Virgin Mary, just staring at me.
You might think this would be kind of a cool, reassuring experience, but it wasn't.
Instead, it was as if something completely 'other' was using a full-body Virgin Mary mask to drop in on me and remind me that I was under surveillance or something. It scared me to death, and it continued to happen off and on, in weird settings and later, in my dreams.
Even today, when people talk about Virgin Mary apparitions and what Mary has to say (it's always something horrifying like, "hey you guys are gonna fry if you don't all pray more right now and repent too"), I think, Wow. The Virgin Mary has a dark side that nobody talks about.
And it makes me wonder. It makes me think about that 'full body Virgin Mary mask' perception from my first childhood sighting.
In fact, as early as the mid-1970s information scientist and UFO researcher Jacques Vallee was noting the similarities between sightings of the BVM (Blessed Virgin Mary) and UFO and abduction lore. Fatima, with the spinning disc overhead seen by so many is a good example.
Anyway, I told my mother about this new wrinkle in my inner/outer life, and got the same "over-active imagination" line again, but I could tell she was starting to feel a little nervous about it all. Maybe it was because I often answered her before she spoke, and this freaked her out mightily.
As for me, I THOUGHT she actually did speak, but apparently not.
Or maybe it was because my brother (at the time my only sibling) had taken to drawing the same Easter Bunny with a basket of eggs over and over and over again--at Easter, on his birthday, on the fourth of July, at Thanksgiving, at Christmas... the same damn bunny. No matter what you asked him to draw, he'd come up with this Easter Bunny and everyone would squirm. It was cute at first, and gradually became more and more an embarrassment and an enigma.
His teachers were concerned. My dad was mad. No one knew what to do.
I don't think my mother could really take the prospect of two crazy kids.
So she started to talk a little about how some people just have this way of seeing and hearing things other people don't, and that it wasn't bad, but it was probably best not to talk about it too much, and blah blah, but even as a kid I knew that was crap.
Curiouser and Curiouser
I think life is naturally strange, but people learn to block out the strange parts because they are scared. That's why so many people have rigid opinions, I think.
Strong opinions force order onto chaos. Staying closed to what you don't understand keeps the 'crazy' at bay.
I get that, I really do.
There's nothing more disconcerting than running into dead people and other kinds of disincarnate entities all over the place without warning and not knowing what the hell you are supposed to do about it or why it is happening.
It's even harder if no one else seems to be seeing or hearing what you are seeing and hearing. And I do think that people go crazy from this.
It's not an easy or welcome ability for most folks.
Fortunately for me, over time I began to get external validation for many of my strange perceptions, which helped me to trust my intuition. I shook hands with a man who was about to die and instantly knew it. After meeting him, I asked a friend about his health, and she was shocked because he was gravely ill but very private about it. He died within days.
I seemed to know when women were pregnant before they did. And if I walked into a 'haunted house' I could often tell why it was haunted right away and who was hanging around there. Sometimes I would 'see' the ghost i my mind's eye. Sometimes I would just instantly know. Sometimes I would hear things. And often the person in the house would validate that I had hit on something that was actually happening.
After awhile, people began to come to me (quietly, with great embarrassment) for help with this or that. Occasionally I would get nothing, zip, but usually I'd get some sort of impression that seemed to help them when I shared it.
Eventually I just accepted it. I didn't run out and advertise myself as a medium or talk myself up (I guess I'm doing that here, but at least it's under a pseudonym), I just decided that 1) I wasn't nuts, and 2) this wasn't nothing and it wasn't imaginary, but 3) I wasn't going to dive into it whole hog and start wearing a lot of gauze and hanging out at bookstores that sell crystals.
That's not who I am. It's not who I want to be. But I do write about this stuff, and that helps me, and if it helps others too, that's very cool.
The important thing is to maintain balance and positive intent.
Passing 'It' On
As I entered young adulthood I realized that whatever plagued me as a child was passed down on my mother's side, and EVERYBODY knew about it.
In fact, they called (and still call) it 'it'.
One of my sisters has 'it' but not my other sister. My brother definitely has 'it' but 'it' has not done him any good whatsoever. One of my daughters has 'it' but not the other, and my son has 'it' and is doing well. My mother had lots of 'it'. Her mother had even more.
So what is 'it'?
I think it is just what we call intuition. I think all kids are born with it, but most learn to put it away as they get farther along in their early school years. Just like math ability or musical talent, some kids are born with more of 'it' than other kids. But I don't think it is magical or paranormal. Most mammals have it. It's only people who get all cranked up about it.
I'll end with this story, which is passing strange in anybody's book, I'd say:
When my oldest daughter was four we threw her a birthday party and all the family came. Her great grandmother, who was my father's mother, was in a nursing home on the other side of the country and could not attend, even though she and my daughter had been very close.
Halfway into opening the first present, my daughter stopped and announced happily, "Grandma's here!"
Everyone winced and became visibly uncomfortable. My sister finally broke in and said, "No, honey, grandma is in California, remember?"
At that exact moment, the phone rang.
It was the nursing home. My grandmother had just passed away.
Did she stop by the birthday party to say good-bye to my daughter? Or did she stop by to say hello, and remind her she would always be there?
In this life, you get to choose what to believe.
I know what I believe. What do you think?
teem on November 02, 2018:
The strangest experience I have ever had is rather scary too. It was a normal day, and my sister and I were home alone. Lydia was doing laundry and I had to go to the bathroom. After I was done I walked by the front door and there was a hooded silhouette. It walked up to the door, knocked (I heard the knock) and then once I had gotten to the door way on the other side, I looked back and, it wasn't there!
Because of the terrifying experience I decided to stick with Lydia for the rest of that time.
Sebastian on January 13, 2015:
I love blue and this is such a moody hue .brings up so much emotion (as your phoots do). Hauntingly beautiful: I can only imagine the feelings it would stir up to be beneath its vastness. Last night the sky of red called me out to the yard as the sun set behind the mountains. It was so lovely; I could not bear to leave it. So the dogs and I took a walk around the farm. Just as we reached the house, we heard a loud squawking which I recognized: The Great Blue Heron! She settled in to the tallest snag along the creek behind the barn. I am hoping she has returned for another year to raise her babies. Thank you and blessed day Nadia!
Pamela Hutson (author) from Moonlight Maine on September 09, 2013:
Me too Wiccan Sage. It's amazing what people will open up and share one on one. Thanks for reading!
Mackenzie Sage Wright on September 09, 2013:
Wow, these are really interesting. I've had my share of strange experiences myself and I love to hear other people talk about theirs, it makes me feel in good company.
Pamela Hutson (author) from Moonlight Maine on July 05, 2012:
I have had that experience! I think this life is such a mystery, we may never know what all that means. But by the same token, I wonder sometimes if we meet people while we are in an 'other' realm, during sleep, on the way to sleep, in dreams... I think some of us travel! Thanks for reading and thanks for your comment. :)
yoginijoy from Mid-Atlantic, USA on July 05, 2012:
I know what you mean about the lights! I too had similar experiences as a kid. I also have had experiences where I have met someone but it felt like I already knew them. The bizarre part is that they felt the same way. This has happened to me twice in this lifetime. Have you had that experience?
Pamela Hutson (author) from Moonlight Maine on May 24, 2012:
Hi thoughthole! I know what you mean about the more questions than answers problem. I always feel like the more I know, the less I know. One great thing about sharing this has been the discovery that I am not ao unusual after all, it's just that this is a topic where people are reluctant to share until they are sure they won't be laughed at. Thank your for your kind words. :)
thoughthole from Utah on May 23, 2012:
This is a fantastic hub! What an exciting life you have had with so many direct and unique experiences. How I long to see an "apparition" thinking that in some way seeing may be solid validation. Unfortunately the eye usually provokes more questions than answers.
Pamela Hutson (author) from Moonlight Maine on May 22, 2012:
Thank you Nicole! I'm glad you enjoyed it. :)
Nicole S Hanson from Minnesota on May 21, 2012:
Wowza! This was uber-interesting. You're a great writer, as I couldn't stop reading!
Pamela Hutson (author) from Moonlight Maine on May 03, 2012:
You know, Mr. Happy, your comments are really helpful! I liked what you said about trying not to speak in absolutes. I still fall into doing that and you are so right!
I guess I should have been less sarcastic about crystals. My spouse gave me a sapphire ring for my birthday and it is very special to me, not just because it is from him, but because I immediately felt it was from this other world you speak of as well, that it was love & protection all at once. It really knocked me over.
You are pretty funny yourself! It's so good to meet you here. Best back at ya! :)
Mr. Happy from Toronto, Canada on May 03, 2012:
"It's even harder if no one else seems to be seeing or hearing what you are seeing and hearing." - I try not to speak in the absolute. : )
"They told me I had "an overactive imagination," which was what parents said back then when their kids said crazy stuff ..." - Haha ... what else can they say when they had no experience or knowledge of what You described to them ... they could only relate to your experience through the "overactive imagination" understanding/comment. You walk in the Nagual, the Spirit World and not many people do ... they are lost when talked to about such things.
"I wasn't going to dive into it whole hog and start wearing a lot of gauze and hanging out at bookstores that sell crystals." - Hey! What's wrong with Crystals? I hold gems and crystals in one of my medicine pouches almost all the time (excluding some full moons, showers, etc.) I know what You're saying though and it is amazing that You did not start hanging around stores which sell crystals. In my opinion, You had and have enough personal power to enter the Nagual/Spirit World but at the same time not indulge in It.
"One of my sisters has 'it' but not my other sister." Love the way you expressed this. You're funny! I like funny people.
Thank You for writing this story and for sharing it with Us. What an interesting Spirit You are, lovely!
I wish You all the very best! : )
Pamela Hutson (author) from Moonlight Maine on April 29, 2012:
Hi Gemini Fox! I know what you mean. There are times when 'it' can be a real pain in the you know what. Thanks for your comment. :)
Gemini Fox on April 29, 2012:
Welcome to HubPages!
I think sometimes I have fairly good intuition but have always wished I could have 'it' . . . on the other hand, I'm sure that being knowing is not always a blessing!
Off to read more of your hubs . . .
Pamela Hutson (author) from Moonlight Maine on April 27, 2012:
Lillyeth--I remember that! (Especially the closet._
Suzanne Sheffield from Mid-Atlantic on April 26, 2012:
I had the same routine every night: check under the bed, in the closet, and behind the curtains to make sure the "Boogie Man" wasn't in my room.
Pamela Hutson (author) from Moonlight Maine on April 26, 2012:
That's a shame that people ridiculed you here. I decided before posting stuff that I would delete any hateful, trolling, or ridicule comments. So far, thank goodness, there haven't been any. I don't mind when people disagree, but when it goes past that, it's gone. But you still have to look at it, don't you? Thanks for commenting and thanks again for sharing! :)
Debra Allen from West By God on April 26, 2012:
Well I don't have a lot of "IT" but I do have "IT". Thanks for looking at my I believe in life after death. I do have others about my experiences too along that same line. I had my testimony on here but took it off because of all the ridicule that I got from it.
Pamela Hutson (author) from Moonlight Maine on April 26, 2012:
Wow, I went to visit family today out of town and came back to find all these great comments! Thank you all. :)
Angie Jardine, I like that--good taste is a choice! Lol!
Astradeva, thanks for your thoughts. I do have an idea of what was behind the Virgin Mary mask, but I guess that's for another hub! Thanks for reading and commenting.
Onegreenparachute--there's a woman who goes around doing workshops on remote viewing and she's amazing. I wish I could think of her name. Most people, as you say, are amazed they can do it, because they've been taught it's rot. Thanks for coming by.
Lipnancy and crabbykris, thanks! I'm glad you took the time to comment. :)
Seeker 7, yes it's weird how it skips around isn't it? Thank you for the warm welcome!
JamaGenee--I agree, I think science is on the verge of validating this, and it's so incredibly cool. Some day we will look back and wonder that people were ever tormented over 'it'.
Joanna McKenna from Central Oklahoma on April 26, 2012:
My own theory is scientists will someday find the "it" gene and that it...no pun intended...is passed down the same as any other trait like eye color, freckles, insanity, etc. And that's why some people inherit a little or a lot of "it"...and some get skipped entirely. ;D
Helen Murphy Howell from Fife, Scotland on April 26, 2012:
It's always great to meet another person whose 'strange' life is normal!! This is an awesome and fascinating hub! I have puzzled as well over why 'It' as you call it can pass by some in the family and yet others have 'It' in abundance. Also, with my own experiences, they can go away, similar to your good self, but then come back again? Although I tend to find that when there is a lot of stress in life etc. then the awesome dreams, the sensations, the visits and whatever else are blocked out.
It's really nice to have you here on Hub Pages. The more experiences that are shared, the more it will help us all to understand 'It'.
Great hub + voted up!
crabbykris from Fort Pierce on April 26, 2012:
Cool hub. I just love paranormal stories.
Nancy Yager from Hamburg, New York on April 26, 2012:
Love your Hub. I too come from a family of healers and mediums. I know it is a tough struggle, because most people wrongly assume you are crazy or trying to scam them
Carol from Greenwood, B.C., Canada on April 26, 2012:
Ah yes! I can't tell you how many times I've heard the "overactive imagination" excuse. I inherited "it" from my Grandmother who was a very successful medium. This winter I attended an intensive workshop entitled Confidence in Mediumship. It was a mind-blowing weekend and we all amazed ourselves. Thanks Chris - a great read! Voted up!
William Benner from Savannah GA. on April 26, 2012:
Wow, good hub that speaks of something that I think many kids have....I had to sleep with the closet door closed and my bedroom door open. I always checked under my bed and was always told that I had a "overactive imagination." These things are what lead me deep into the Occult, and for years I seemed to be attracted to the "darker" side. What you said about "the full body virgin Mary mask" was very interesting, for I feel that often spirits will pretend too be one thing when in truth they are something else all together!
Astradeva on April 26, 2012:
there is nothing to fear from spirit, your spirit family are with you, they come and go, my great granmother was a spirit medium, some members of my family are tuned in, when I attended the spiritual church with my aunt, I always knew when or if we would receive a message, I would feel shivers running up and down my body, I even felt them stroke my hair, one time I felt someone (a child) climb onto my knee with two spirits standing either side of me. What you do not understand is that you are not lone, but your own will never hurt you. Sadly my own child had night terrors as a small child, of course then I knew nothing of spirit, I would have to sit with her until she fell asleep or sit outside of her door, but she told me that as she was falling asleep she would see dark shapes coming out of the corner of the room, I do not know what "these" were, it was a very old house 1720 AD. I have learnd to listen to my children, do not dismiss everything as fantasy, it is easy to push it all under the carpet, but never place it all into the same category, just try to comfort your little ones reassuringly, I know this is not always easy p.s. I think the vision of the virgin could well have been a cover up, and it seems your reaction told you so, try this, sit by yourself speak in your head, what ever is with you will eventually make some kind of contact, they like to click the television, as I write this someone has set off a buzzer in my house, try not to be too concerned, but be aware that all is not nice.
Angie Jardine from Cornwall, land of the eternally youthful mind ... on April 26, 2012:
Intriguing hub, CR ... many thanks.
Like you I have had 'weird' things happen to me over my life ... though not as frequently as you have and I have to say I do admire the way you deal with 'it'.
I am also relieved you have decided to forgo the gauze and crystals. Having 'it' is non-optional for you, making sure you have good taste is :)
Pamela Hutson (author) from Moonlight Maine on April 24, 2012:
Hi Pamela99. Yes I think we do suppress these perceptions as we age. I think most kids have a pretty rich inner life. Thank you so much for reading and commenting.:)
Pamela Oglesby from Sunny Florida on April 23, 2012:
What a fascinating stories. I have had some of these experiences, but not nearly what you describe. I just sometimes know things about someone when there is not explanation as to how I could. I do think we suppress things as we age, where if we were more open at a younger age, we would always be more in tune to our surroundings. I enjoyed your hub very much. Congrats on your Hubnugget nomination.
Pamela Hutson (author) from Moonlight Maine on April 23, 2012:
Denise Handlon from North Carolina on April 23, 2012:
Goose bumps here...interesting recount of your childhood experiences. I have heard and read many incidents where a young child sees a person who has passed away. Good luck in the contest.
Pamela Hutson (author) from Moonlight Maine on April 22, 2012:
Wow, thank you for the info on the Hubnuggets nomination. I didn't even know! And thanks for your comment!
Michelle Simtoco from Cebu, Philippines on April 22, 2012:
A friend of mine can see too and he would tell me if anyone was following me and asking for help. Thank you for sharing your story. I know who have the same 'gift' as you would benefit from this.
Congratulations on your Hubnuggets nomination! To read and vote, this way https://hubpages.com/community/Categorically-HubNu...
Mmargie1966 from Gainesville, GA on April 21, 2012:
Great hub! Enjoyed the read :)
Pamela Hutson (author) from Moonlight Maine on April 13, 2012:
Thank you mperrottet! I totally agree. :)
Margaret Perrottet from San Antonio, FL on April 13, 2012:
I absolutely agree with you that strange experiences are actually normal, not paranormal. Too many people report having at least a few "strange" experiences, myself included. That would therefore make these occurrences normal rather than abnormal. Great hub!
Pamela Hutson (author) from Moonlight Maine on April 06, 2012:
Thank you JamaGenee! There are more of us around than I used to think! It makes me feel better somehow... I really appreciate your comment. :)
Joanna McKenna from Central Oklahoma on April 06, 2012:
CR, you had me "strangeness is your baseline"! Yep, that sums up MY life. On my mother's side, I was always the "strange one". I and a second-cousin inherited "it" (as your family called it) from my dad's mother who died when I was a baby. So Daddy's side of the family never thought it "strange" that Cousin and I "knew" things for which there was no earthly explanation, like who was calling before the phone rang, or replying to questions before they were asked out loud. Or that we often replied to questions before they'd been asked out loud. Communicating with the Dearly Departed? No big deal...Grandma had done it, too. So I grew up knowing what one side considered "strange" was "normal" on the other.
As for my children, all inherited "the gift", but only two will admit to having it now that they're grown. But kiddie card games were a riot when they were little. They quickly learned to only glance at the cards in their hand, otherwise everyone else at the table could "see" exactly what they had and play accordingly.
Voted up and awesome! Now I'm heading over to read kitty's Call From The Grave hub, but I'll be back! ;D
Pamela Hutson (author) from Moonlight Maine on March 30, 2012:
Wow, I guess we DO have a lot in common! Heading over now to read your Call from the Grave hub. Thanks for reading this and commenting!
Kitty Fields from Summerland on March 30, 2012:
CR Rookwood - I've had a TON of these experiences, so I guess we have a lot in common. One just recently was probably the weirdest I've ever had. I wrote about it in my hub "A Call from the Grave or Reincarnation?" My spirit guide actually showed me his last grave from his last incarnation as a little boy. Anywho, wonderful hub. I loved hearing about your Virgin Mary encounter & your child's intuition. My daughter is the same way. She will know who is calling before we even look at the phone (she's 4 so she can't read yet either). She will also literally read my mind and it usually freaks me out! I say to her, "did I just say that out loud? I thought I was just thinking it" and she'll laugh and laugh.
Pamela Hutson (author) from Moonlight Maine on March 29, 2012:
Thank you precy! I'm so glad you enjoyed it. Yes, ghosts can be scary for most people! I don't think most of us want to be bumping into them on a steady basis. Thanks again for dropping by. :)
precy anza from USA on March 29, 2012:
Wow! Enjoyed reading this! I had really had never seen any ghost, only I saw shadow people twice in my life. And most are just some "feelings," and hearing things. I'm a scaredy cat so somehow I appreciate it not seeing anything :) But one thing I love is when my dreams do happen :)
Pamela Hutson (author) from Moonlight Maine on March 28, 2012:
Lilleyth, I think there are more of us than you might think! sadly, some people ridicule, so it's hard and it discourages most people from talking about it. Thanks for reading!
Suzanne Sheffield from Mid-Atlantic on March 28, 2012:
Welcome to my world...I guess we are just more perceptive than those who do not see or "know" things.