Bailee has been figuring out her life and how to help others with the grace, teachings, and experiences of Jesus and God.
Ecclesiastes 3:1 to 3:8
I have been on this Earth for a little over 17 years. Throughout those years, I have come to the realization that what I plan to happen in my life and what actually happens in my life are completely different. I can choose what I want to happen, but ultimately it's out of my control. It took me longer than it should have, but I came to the realization earlier than most people.
When I turned 16 I thought that I would get a car. Not something unrealistic for someone turning 16. I remembered, "Oh, I don't have a permit." I got my permit and thought that I would soon get a car. I was wrong. I hadn't gotten one and it was December. My initial thought was "Ooh, you're going to get a car with a bow on top sitting in the driveway Christmas morning." On Christmas morning when I woke up, I immediately went to the window to look at the driveway and didn't see a car. My first thought was "Okay, I'm not at my house for Christmas so maybe when I get home it will be there." Days later when I got home, there still wasn't a car for me. My mom told me that I was supposed to get a car for Christmas but when my parents went to the dealership to get it, they had sold it to someone else. I was really upset but then remembered one of my life mottos of everything happens for a reason.
God has a plan for everyone and everything. God didn't want me to have a car yet. He had better things planned for me. The bible says that "it might not come when you want it, but it is right on time." When I didn't get a car, I was upset with my parents and with God. I thought that if I prayed for something then it would happen or I would get it. I had prayed for so many things over the years and rarely got them, but I thought that this time would be different.
Even though I was upset and skeptical about prayer, I never stopped. I prayed for months and reminded myself that everything happens for a reason and that God has a plan for me. In June, when I was least expecting it my mom surprised me with a car! I was so surprised and so excited. I thanked God because I knew that he heard my prayers and that this was him answering them.
Whenever I forget that God has a plan for me and has a time for everything, I remember Ecclesiastes 3:1 through 3:14.
"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
What do workers gain from their toil? I have seen the burden God has laid on the human race. He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end."
I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live. That each of them may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all their toil---this is the gift of God. I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that people will fear him."
Even when you don't like something that happens, God made it happen for a reason. He wanted to give you certain experiences so you will be prepared for what he has for you in the future. Everything that God has put you through is for your benefit.
When I was younger my dream was to go to the University of Alabama and to be a cheerleader on the all girl squad. I was a cheerleader for 11 years and a competitive one for 9 years. Even before I started cheering I had always talked about going to the University of Alabama.
Throughout my years of cheering, I had many injuries including two concussions. Even though I was getting hurt and putting a lot of stress on my mind and body, I decided to keep cheering because I wanted to be a college cheerleader. When I was cheering I was subject to a lot of bullying. It didn't start getting really bad until I was in high school. The bullying I was exposed to is something I will get into another time, but after being severely bullied for two years, I decided that I hated cheerleading. I still loved the sport but I didn't like most of the people that I was on teams with. I had never like tumbling and always had anxiety about going to practice or a competition. After tenth grade I stopped cheering all together. I was excited to stop because I thought that the bullying would end but, I realized that it would be harder for me to achieve my goal of being a cheerleader at Alabama.
After I stopped cheering I came to the realization that I won't be able to cheer in college. Not just because I was burnt out from doing it for so long but, I had put my mind and body through so much and I wouldn't be able to take it anymore.
I was so upset when I realized I won't be able to cheer in college, but I remembered that I can still go to the university. Since I won't be cheering I can do more things like study abroad, have jobs, focus on my school work, and have more time for my friends and family. I started telling myself that God didn't want me to cheer in college. He has a bigger and better plan for my life and being a college cheerleader was not in his plan for me. I became okay with the fact I wouldn't cheer in college because God has a bigger plan for me than I have for myself. God has planned everything for me and all I have to do is keep praying, keep my faith strong, and trust him to get me through every situation he puts me through.
The situations in my life have reminded me about Ecclesiastes 3:1 to 3:14. God has a time for everything and you just have to be patient and wait for that time. God can and will make a way for everything. What God has planned for you is much greater than what anyone thought they could take away from you. I know that I got a car when I did because I wasn't ready on my 16th birthday, Christmas, or even my 17th birthday. God wanted me to wait so I would be more grateful and appreciative. I know that I stopped cheering when I did so I could focus on my school work and because I stopped cheering and focused on my school work, I was able to be finished with high school my junior year. That was one of God's plans for me and I just have to go wherever he leads me. God knows what he is doing so you just have to believe in him and what he has planned for you because it is greater than what you could ever plan for yourself.
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