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Staring at the Window

Gracie is an adventurous type of person and she likes to learn new things.

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Raindrops

I want to live somewhere where it rains a lot, where I can take a cup of tea with my blanket, stare out the window appreciating the sound of the rain, and allow myself to enjoy the tranquility of Mother Nature. Rain calms me and so does thunderstorms. I’d enjoy this more sitting next to someone; a good friend that can enjoy the stillness with me and talk about random stuff or someone I love who can cuddle with me.

It drives me crazy that sometimes I feel empty. Rain gives me the vibes of needing someone. I feel like something is missing. Is it my missing piece? Do I even have a missing piece? The missing piece of my puzzle? Or am I just thinking too much? Should I look for love? But finding your true love is like having to venture through a maze. Each wrong turn inevitably leads to a dead end. Is it worth continuing? Am I just wasting my time? Yes, it’s worth it for at the end of the maze awaits what I’ve always dreamed of finding my soul mate. I know this in my heart and so I carry on. These dead ends will not hold me back from achieving my goal.

I am completely vulnerable when it comes to finding someone to be with. I tend to meet different types of people who take advantage of me. Make me fall in love, show me affection but in the end, they will still leave me hanging. At first, I was so reluctant to forgive them but then I realized, they have taught me a lot of lessons. Lessons that I will forever cherish. I don't have to hate them but rather embrace the fact that they have helped me to be the best version of myself. I won’t complain about that at all. It’s made me who I am today. A fighter with a heart filled with love. Love that I look forward to sharing with someone special one day. A day I know in my heart will come.

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Thunderstorm

Others hated thunderstorms because it sounds like a loud bang with a very short duration repeatedly. Some are petrified that it might hit them with a blink of an eye. They tend to hide on their blankets, closed their eyes, and try not to listen to these deafening sounds. It will result in them having sleepless nights, they will hate that moment and sometimes curse nature. They always want it to end as soon as possible and wanting the sun to rise. This is what others are missing out on. It might rain so heavily that might also cause thunders and lightning but these are just like trials in life. We have to deal with it, we have to embrace this kind of hurdle, be strong enough, learned from it, and once everything is all set and done, we will get what we want. Peace and serendipity. After every storm, there will always be a burst of sunshine.


Sunshine

This is what most of us are longing for. Sunshine, that gives light to our life. It brightens up our day, gives us hope in general. We must be thankful to be in this kind of situation. Remember, you’re having a good day but someone out there is experiencing a thunderstorm. However, there’s no need for you to worry about having a bad day or shall we call it “thunder days”, it's normal. It doesn’t mean you’re happy now and tomorrow you will not. It is still up to your decisions and perceptions in life. Life is like rain, it doesn’t know how to fall upwards; like thunderstorms, it doesn’t know where it will hit, and the sunrise, that will always arise no matter how dark your days are. In conclusion, today will be as dark as hell but tomorrow will be as bright as the sun. These are the reasons why I love rain, thunderstorms, and the sunrise. I embraced everything. It's not that easy, but it's worth the risk. I know it may sound cliché but whoever you are reading this, stay strong. Never lose hope!

© 2020 Gracie Lee

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