We’re an unlikely pair, and you’ve helped me more than you know.
“I like you. I look forward to spending more time with you. Hopefully, you feel the same way. Just in case you are as boneheaded as I can be, let me phrase this bluntly: I want to go on a date with you. “
That is the text I cannot seem to send. I have typed it up and had my finger hovering over the send button multiple times. It is also followed by some text about how, if you don’t feel the same way we can still be friends and I won’t make it any weirder than I just did. LOL.
You make me feel like a giddy schoolgirl. Whatever that feels like.
I am crushing on you. I’m not sure when things changed for me, or how. But I know that as I get to know you, I like you more and that too many of my thought cycles are spent thinking of you.
I understand if you do not reciprocate. You may not like me romantically, and that is OK. I do not want to lose your friendship.
Things are complicated. I am married to my best friend and we have young children.
My wife and I are not romantically attached, but I love and care for her, and my family will always be an important part of my life. Dating you means adding you to our family. I think you would like them, and I think they would like you. But it is a lot to ask of anyone. At least we are not a cult.
We are both transgender and that brings up a whole host of my insecurities. Would you tolerate kissing me when I have stubble because my electrolysis is still in progress? How do we negotiate who is the big or little spoon? Would the fact that I have not had “the surgery” spook you if we went there? How do we even go there?
You told me I was beautiful, once.
I think you might be feeling the same way. Our conversations have gone well beyond anything I have experienced with my other friends. Even my good friends. We have tentative plans to spend holidays together and bounce around the planet going on adventures. That’s long-term planning Hon.
One thing I do know: I would be proud to be with you.
Want to see where this goes? Because I do.
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