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Your friend circle
Your friend circle is small or non existent. You have one or two best friends and a maximum of 20 contacts on your phone. Even though you have best friends, you maintain minimum contact with them.
You don't indulge in small talks. You only talk when absolutely necessary and your best friends know that fact about you. So they do not initiate conversations that require emotional involvement.
You don't know what to do when someone cries. 'Should I ask if he/she is okay? Does giving water like in the movies actually work? Should I pat him/her on the shoulder' are just three of the hundred questions that momentarily pop up in your mind. You are good at pretending to be interested, so as to avoid extra questions.
Over the years, you have come to realize that the only person who can understand what you are going through is you. You have tried to speak about yourself and your personality once, but it probably hasn't worked out well so you avoid doing so.
Am I a psychopath?
You have at one point questioned your own personality. You watch too many movies regarding sociopaths to avoid becoming one. You want to be outgoing but it seems impossible and understanding why humans are such jerks is beyond you or not worth your time.
'Does this mean that I lack humanity?' You cannot possibly be more wrong. Don't doubt yourself because you might be the most human among the people around you. You never know. I recently had an argument with my very extroverted friend about humanity. Do you think you will sit still when a Purge like situation arrives and the world goes into anarchy? Will so called self certified humanity flag bearers sit still if there weren't laws to stop them? Humanity is a concept coined by humans to make them feel better and different than animals while humans are the worst beasts of all.
What's with the b**** face?
People assume you are pissed off and unapproachable because you 'look uninterested',(this has been a personal problem of mine). Even when people do approach you, you lack the social skills to respond. But in your mind, you are thinking of the reason they approached you, what they have in their mind and analyzing even the way they speak.
The King of observation
You are observing everything, from weird trees, lame flowers and animals to a group of people, their body language or who knows even lip reading.
You are you
In the end, you know who you are, you don't depend on others or expect them to do anything for you. You are independent of biased opinions because your opinions are formed purely based on logic and they are mostly neutral because you can think about every angle of a story.
Finally, a word of comfort for all those who lack the ability to express themselves, you aren't going to grow up into a serial killer. Simply chill and do not force yourself to change.
dashingscorpio from Chicago on June 23, 2021:
People don't change unless (they) are unhappy.
I suspect if someone is happy with having a small circle of friends they don't spend a lot of time wondering if something is "wrong".
If anything you have wonder what's up with those people who need to have 5000 "Facebook friends" or a 100,000 Instagram followers and attending every party or social event in their area.
It's almost as if they're (afraid) of being alone, afraid of silence, doing some introspective thinking, or lack self-esteem. They can't be happy unless others are showering them with praise giving them a ton of "likes" on their social media posts.
Truth be told when the chips are down most people are "blessed" if they have a "handful of friends" they can count on.
A lot of people want change in their life without making changes.
I see this a lot in dating forums where people complain about not having boyfriend or girlfriend.
Oftentimes it turns out they don't enjoy engaging in activities or going to places where (singles) congregate and socialize!
Don't be a passenger in your own life. Take the wheel!
If you want to learn how to swim eventually you have to get in the water! When (we) change our circumstances change.
Life is a (personal) journey.
The world may not owe you anything but you owe yourself the world!
If you're happy keep doing what you're doing.