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Dealing With Unforgiveness

"Jerry retired Trucker- Author- Ph.D. in Philosophy/ Life Coach from Kingdom Ambassadors Global Univ. & Currently MHC Life University"


Scripture Referances

(Matthew 18:21-35) (21) “Then came Peter to him, and said, Lord, how oft shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? till seven times?” (22) “Jesus saith unto him, I say not unto thee, Until seven times: but, Until seventy times seven.” (23) “Therefore, is the kingdom of heaven likened unto a certain king, which would take account of his servants.” (24) “And when he had begun to reckon, one was brought unto him, which owed him ten thousand talents.” (25) “But forasmuch as he had not to pay, his lord commanded him to be sold, and his wife, and children, and all that he had, and payment to be made.” (26) “The servant therefore fell down, and worshipped him, saying, Lord, have patience with me, and I will pay thee all.” (27) “Then the lord of that servant was moved with compassion, and loosed him, and forgave him the debt.” (28) “But the same servant went out, and found one of his fellow servants, which owed him an hundred pence: and he laid hands on him, and took him by the throat, saying, Pay me that thou owest.” (29) “And his fellow servant fell down at his feet, and besought him, saying, have patience with me, and I will pay thee all.” (30) “And he would not: but went and cast him into prison, till he should pay the debt.” (32) “So, when his fellow servants saw what was done, they were very sorry, and came and told unto their lord all that was done.” (32) “Then his lord, after that he had called him, said unto him, O thou wicked servant, I forgave thee all that debt, because thou desiredst me:” (33) “Shouldest not thou also have had compassion on thy fellow servant, even as I had pity on thee?” (34) “And his lord was wroth, and delivered him to the tormentors, till he should pay all that was due unto him.” (35) “So likewise, shall my heavenly Father do also unto you, if ye from your hearts forgive not everyone his brother their trespasses.”


Unforgiveness can cause Cancer

Dearly beloved, we are entering the days of celebration for “Yom Kippur” which can better be defined as the “Day of Atonement” or “The Feast of Tabernacles,” and we are to celebrate by afflicting ourselves in true repentance before the Lord and any wrong doings toward our fellow man.

Beloved, the feasts are designed to get the focus off of our physical bodies and on our souls, but beloved, today in this message, I want to focus on unforgiveness and show that if left unchecked, this evil mindset can turn into resentment and cause physical harm to our bodies including cancer because it causes the body to release harmful hormones in our body which causes stress and prevents the body from producing killer cells needed to fight cancer.

Beloved, did you know that unforgiveness is listed in medical books as a disease, and according to Dr. Steven Standiford, chief of surgery at the Cancer Treatment Centers of America, refusing to forgive makes people sick and keeps them that way, therefore beloved, forgiveness therapy is now being used to help treat diseases, such as cancer.

Saints, we find in (Luke 16:19-31) Jesus speaking of the rich man and Lazarus who is referred to as a beggar laying at the gate of the rich man covered with sores and the bible speaks of the wild dogs of the city having compassion on the beggar by licking the sores that were on his body.

Beloved reader, I mentioned the story of the rich man and Lazarus the beggar to say this, “the beggar Lazarus might have had sores on the outside but there are people today that have sores on the inside” because they have not dealt with past hurts and disappointments.

Beloved, you might ask the question, “how can this affect my body and my walk with God,” and I would reply because it affects your immune system and these undealt with emotions open the door for evil spirits to come in and attack us.

Saints, did you know that emotions are deeply tied to our overall physical well-being, therefore when our minds and spirits are suffering, our bodies follow suit, because beloved, the magnitude that emotions can have on our bodies which result in anxiety and depression is very harmful for they cause our bodies to feel overtired, run down, and can greatly reduce our immune system.

Dear reader, did you know that there are people today harboring deep rooted unforgiveness deep within and they are not even aware of it, because beloved, in their minds, they feel as though they have dealt with it but the truth is that there is a little boy or little girl inside that is hurt so bad that they have learned to build walls up to protect themselves from being hurt again and just like Lazarus (not Lazarus the beggar) who Jesus later raised from the dead, came forth in grave clothes which needed others to remove them to set him free.

Beloved Saints, we need each other to help get the grave clothes (bandages of past hurts and disappointments) unwrapped from our life and be willing to forgive those that have wronged us for Jesus stated in (Matthew 6:14-15) that if we do not forgive others of their trespasses, neither will our heavenly father forgive us our trespasses, therefore if we forgive, we shall be forgiven and be able to live the abundant life which is found in Christ.

Why Did You Hurt Me?

Beloved reader, David spoke in (Psalms 55:12) that he could have endured it if an enemy had insulted him, but it was a man of his equal, his guide and acquaintance; one that had accompanied him to the house of God.

Beloved, did you know that there are good people today that are dealing with church hurts from would be pastors that may have damaged them for life? Saints, the pastors had led them to Christ and encouraged them to be faithful to their church, even bringing them in their inner circle of other pastors attempting to train them for ministry but without warning, the pastors dropped them like they never existed causing them to suffer agonizing moments wondering what happened and what have they done to deserve this kind of treatment?

Church, these people have been faithful to their church and made sure that their tithes were paid on time but here they are feeling hurt, betrayed, and used because they had their faith in a man instead of God.

Saints, these people are like King David when he said, “I could have endured it if it were an enemy or someone who hated me but this is mine equal, a man of God that has shared his life with me, a man who was raising me up to be a minister in his church and now has turned a cold shoulder toward me, not answering any of my phone calls and not even looking my way as he attempts to deliver the Sunday morning message.”

Insights from the Unforgiving Servant

Beloved, our founding scriptures for this message can be found in the book of (Matthew 18:21-35) where we discover the parable of the King and the wicked unforgiving servant but notice in verse (21) where wee finding Peter asking the Lord if his brother sin against him, should he forgive him seven times, but beloved notice the Lord gave instructions that he should forgive them seventy times seven attempting to instill a spiritual truth to his disciples concerning the love and forgiveness of our heavenly father.

Saints notice in verses (23-35) how the Lord speaks of the kingdom of heaven by giving a parable of a rich King who had a servant that owed him something like 2.4 million dollars which would have taken the servant 10 lifetimes to begin to pay back the debt but because the servant fell before the king asking for patience because he had heard the king demand payment and that he, his wife and children be sold to pay the debt.

Church, the scriptures teach that the king had compassion on the servant and forgave the debt, but the servant went down the road and found someone who owed him the sum of $14.00 and did not show compassion even though the man asked for more time to pay the debt.

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Beloved, the servant did not forgive the debt and did not even grant the man more time to pay the debt but had him cast into debtors’ prison, taking him away a being the breadwinner for his family.

Saints, some servants witnessed the wicked unforgiving servant and told the king who angrily summoned him before him demanding that he be turned over to the tormentors until he had paid his debt to the king and beloved, the Lord ended the parable by informing his disciples that our heavenly father will do the same to us if we fail to show compassion and forgive those that trespass against us.

Beloved, can reflect over our life and recall the many times that God not only forgave but hid us in times of trouble even in times when we were guilty, and he chose to forgive and cleanse us of our sin?

Saints, if we go through life expecting others to be like us, we will go through life extremely disappointed but the bottom line in this message is that we must forgive to be forgiven.

Dealing with our Emotions

Dearly beloved, I like others have been hurt so bad in my life that I attempted to take my life on three different occasions and if God had not intervened, I would not be here today.

Saints, there is one important lesson I have learned in life and that lesson is, "no matter what we may be going through or how much we may think that we have lost, beloved reader hear me well, there is always someone going through worse situations and have lost many times more than us."

Beloved, I would not be where I am today and be mature enough to stay, if I had not suffered these many years, which not only worked to develop my character but served to give me a good education on the character of others and how my confidence must be in the Lord my God and not in any human person born on this planet.

Saints, the living God personally through visions taught me how to deal with past hurts and disappointments teaching me that some people come into our life for a short period either to teach us or to educate us while others are assigned to go with us to support us and all our life’s circumstances have been designed to shape us for our destiny and purpose for which we were born.

Beloved, in the first vision, I had been suffering hurts so bad that I actually wanted to bring harm on the ones that hurt me and you may ask what would make you want to inflict harm on another person and my answer would be, what would you do if someone placed their hand in a bible making you an oath to pay a debt if you would give them the money and default on the oath and force you into bankruptcy, then have that same person send an email throughout the world defacing your name only telling their side of the story.

Beloved, what would you do if a publishing company destroyed your dreams and in the space of a few years, never gave you one manuscript even though you paid the business upfront with a signed contract?

Saints, I could go on for the rest of the year listing my past hurts, but the living God visited me in dreams and schooled me on just how important it is to deal with unforgiveness and instructed me on how to overcome the anger and urge to retaliate against those that seemingly have no conscience or remorse for the way they have did me.

Beloved, the Lord used the scriptures found in (Matthew 18:21-35) concerning the king and the unforgiving servant and boy, did he ever bring revelation to me concerning my need to break free from past hurts.

Saints, did you know that the Lord is a high priest that can be touched with the feeling of our infirmities, and he knows what it is like to be slandered and betrayed, therefore when he came to me speaking about the feelings I was harboring inside, he said “Jerry, you really want me to judge those that have tried to destroy you” and I replied, “No Lord not really but it would help if you allowed them to feel some pain before that attempt to hurt someone else.”

Beloved, the Lord said, “Jerry, you must forgive them for my father to forgive you but one thing I want you to understand, and that is “Just because you forgive them does not mean I will forgive them for they are accountable to me for their transgressions.”

Saints, this revelation shook me up as he reminded me of King David when caught in his sin, asked the Lord to not remove his Holy Spirit from him. (Psalms 51:11)

Beloved did you know that David even after being forgiven of his sin in having a man killed to take his wife, had to pay dearly for his transgression which took more than forty years causing him to suffer with a disease that caused his flesh to stink which helps us to realize that every transgression will be brought into judgement.

Church, the word instructs us in (Romans 12:20) & (Proverbs 25:21-23) to pray for our enemies including feeding them and is so doing, we shall heap coals of fire upon their heads which means beloved, when we obey these scriptures, these people will be brought before the courts of heaven for judgement and many times when I have had to do this and the enemy brings them to my mind, I hold up my hands physically telling God that this is his mail and not mine.

Beloved you may say Dr. Jerry, how did you ever get to a place where you can do this and not hold them accountable and I would reply, because God brought me to a place of humility by asking me some questions which opened my spiritual eyes in a way that I had never seen before.

Saints, the Lord visited me on several occasions to bring me to a place of true repentance and not allowing people or the things of this world which are temporal not hide my view of him who is eternal.

Beloved, in one vision, the Lord asked me if I would like to feel some of his hurt and how would I react if he informed me that I am guilty of breaking his commandments which is plain in the scriptures that if we fail in keeping one, we are guilty of breaking them all and remember beloved, that Jesus added an eleventh commandment which instructs us to love one another.

Church, we find the Lord in agony on the cross asking the father to forgive those that were mocking, slandering and even attempting to take his life for they know not what they do and we find Stephen doing the same thing as the stones were pounding his body therefore we need to understand that there is a place in God where you can forgive those that are giving in to temptations to bring harm your way but know that hurting people are prone to hurt others.

Beloved reader, I could write for hours on this subject but my secret to dealing with losses which I have had my share with pastors not keeping the word with a scheduled meeting and at the last week before the meeting to ignore my attempts to reach them causing me to lose my plane fares including my motel accommodations which my wife and I have always paid our own way.

Saints, these kinds of pastors make me doubt that they have ever had an encounter with God by acting as if they have no conscience causing me to come to a place that I still want them to eat, but not at my table however the bottom line to this entire message would be a quote from a prominent preacher who stated, "sometimes beloved, you just need to get you emotions saved."

Beloved, the way my wife and I deal with these losses is to sow them to the kingdom of God and it is like another company coming in to assume the debts of another company which frees up the original company because they have sold the debt but the ones that owed the debt still must pay the other company that assumed the responsibility to collect the debt owed.

Dear reader, my wife and I sow these losses to the kingdom of God and this act of faith releases us from the emotions some encounter when meeting the ones that done them wrong because these people no longer owe us but they still owe God and he will reward us with lives changed for eternity and souls added to his kingdom and beloved, the publisher that laughed in my face when I walked away deciding to not sue but give it to God, was not laughing three days later when a driver under the influence hit him head on nearly costing him his life.

Saints, when the enemy brings a memory of how you have been done to your mind, my advice is to physically hold up your hand and give it to God even if you have to do it fifty times a day because beloved the scriptures teach in (Colossians 3:13-25) that we should forbear one another which simply means that we should not quarrel but give God time to work on both ends bringing us to repentance before God and our fellowmen.


My Conclusion

Beloved reader, this message on how to react and deal with unforgiveness is essential in our advancement in the kingdom of God and how we respond instead of reacting to situations will demonstrate that we have the maturity and the character need to fulfill our purpose in that position.

Church, we are entering a climax with the kingdom of darkness and we need to be trained in dealing with trauma and emotional crisis in people but how are we going to fulfill that role if we need counseling and deliverance in our own lives therefore the bottom line would be “people do not care how much you know until they know how much you care” which is some sound advice given personally to me by my mentor Apostle Don Stewart.

Beloved, the way we extend mercy to others could be compared to someone bringing sunshine into the life of a hurting person because the reality is that if we strive to be that kind of person, we will be unable to keep it from shinning in our own life for God is love and it is that character that distinguishes him from others.

Saints, may we absorb this teaching and use it to make us a better person, one that is willing to look past the faults of others considering ourselves understanding that if God were to pull back his spirit from us, we are just as capable of doing even worse things that people have done to us therefore let us humble ourselves before his loving arms and pray that he would cause the words of our lips and the meditation of our heart to be acceptable in his sight, O Lord, my strength and my redeemer.(Psalms 19:14)

International Evangelist
Dr. Jerry W. Hulse Ph.D.
Miracle Life Church International

This content is accurate and true to the best of the author’s knowledge and is not meant to substitute for formal and individualized advice from a qualified professional.

© 2022 Jerry W Hulse

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