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The Thought of Living Without You

 Safe in your arms

Safe in your arms

One red rose. Symbol of lasting love

One red rose. Symbol of lasting love

beauty around us

beauty around us

Cold oh so cold without you

Cold oh so cold without you

Alone with my thoughts . Without you.

Alone with my thoughts . Without you.

Where would I be, and what would I do,

Without you?

Would I be independent, live a full life,

Without you?

Would I have happy days meeting good friends,

For lunch, or dinner or sometimes, the theatre?

Would I change my long hair,

If you were not there?

Just What would I do without you?

I´d be free as a bird, to go where I want to,

Buy lots of new clothes to go with new hairdo.

Is that what I really would do?

If I had to live without you?

Or would I return to the shy teenage girl,

you helped blossom into a woman?

And quietly try to live through the day,

with nothing to say,

Without you.

Would I feel insecure without your strong arms,

protecting me year after year?

With soothing reminders that ´´It´ll be alright´´

As you comforted me from all my fears.

Oh What would I be like without you?


I think that my days would be dark as a pit!!!,

for my reason to live would have vanished,

For so long have you been the rock of my dreams,

I cannot imagine......................without you.

I cannot imagine one day would go by,

without me hugging your spirit,

Pretending you´re here , as you´ve always been,

hugging a ghost, a phantom, a dream..

Yes that´s how I´d be without you.

I´d find it hard to let go, to put on a show

pretend to the world I´m OK..

No, love of my life, if I had to live

with only myself and you´re gone,

There´d be no life for me, my eyes would not see,

for permanent tears...... they would blind me.

It´s silly for me to dwell on such things,

You tell me ´The glass is half full´´,

And always Will be .......If I let it be,

My life could go on without you.

But barely a life, existence, more like,

My feelings reverting inside me.

For I´d find it so hard to be ´half´of me,

yet live like a person who´s whole.

No, I think it would be a silent world for me,

Alone with my thoughts and my memories.

If ever I have to live

Without You.

Comments

Dim Flaxenwick (author) from Great Britain on November 15, 2012:

I have to first of all thank you for reading and leaving such a lovely comment, but I must also say I am sorry to hear of your mom seeming to lose her will. It is so understandable after 51 years with her mate.

It is, as you read in my poem, how I imagne I will be if my husband goes first.

Thnk you again for your compliment on my work

Amy Becherer from St. Louis, MO on November 15, 2012:

My mom and dad spent their adult years together, 51 of them, until my dad died at 79 years old. Eleven years ago, my mom began life without him and she misses him everyday. Her health matches the little joy she has in life now. When dad died, she lost her will.

Your poetry perfectly mirrors my mother's life since dad's passing. I saw them both in your beautifully emotive writing. You have a gift. Thank you

Dim Flaxenwick (author) from Great Britain on April 10, 2012:

Dear pursuitofmind,

I am sorry to hear that your love has left.. My poem must have been painful for you to read.

I appreciate tha you still did read and comment. I hope your pain eases soon.

Dennis on April 10, 2012:

this is exactly how I felt..and still feel about the love of my life. the only difference is the fact that she has left me and I am that half existent person without her.

Dim Flaxenwick (author) from Great Britain on April 04, 2012:

Dear Epi, your comment has touched my heart, very deeply. You are a rock for me. Thank you.

We have snow here in North of England. time 19.50 here-

epigramman on April 04, 2012:

...well these are my words exactly dear friend if you were ever to leave the Hub or my life online - you have been so loyal to me and offering so much support too - I sincerely hope I have done the same for you - and these words are pure and meaningful ..... sending you warm wishes and good energy from lake erie time 11:59am

Dim Flaxenwick (author) from Great Britain on April 03, 2012:

Hi ImKarn23...... That is one wonderful comment. Thank you so much.

Karen Silverman on April 03, 2012:

i cannot comment at this moment as i am unable to see the screen. You lucky lucky lucky woman. Loving from the soul is both heaven and hell - and worth every moment! Breathtaking, Dim..

Dim Flaxenwick (author) from Great Britain on April 02, 2012:

Thank you nidheeshnair.....

It is kind of you to read and comment.

nidheeshnair from New Delhi on April 02, 2012:

Its beautiful.Agony that rise from a love is to be called beautiful..?.! So it is awesome.!!

Melissa Flagg COA OSC from Rural Central Florida on April 01, 2012:

DOM works for me. lol my hubby pointed out that that nickname, dom, is the name of one of my favorite characters in a video game he and I play together. Another example of how he can make me laugh, I never would have thought of that!

I look forward to more of your writing as well. Thanks again for this amazing poem. When hubby gets home, I'm going to have him read it and I'll let you know his reaction! :D

Dim Flaxenwick (author) from Great Britain on April 01, 2012:

D of M Can I call you that?Or DOM........???

You will have a wonderful time homeschooling I´m sure. I did it for a few years with my daughter.

You´re right, appreciating what we have is important, not getting paranoid about ´´what if?´´

Enjoy your teaching. I look forward to your writing too.

Dim Flaxenwick (author) from Great Britain on April 01, 2012:

Blossom, That is such a beautiful, encouraging thing to say and I thank you for it.

My husband was in a bad car crash 3 months ago and I am lucky and grateful to God that he lived. All these weeks with him recovering at home have really stabbed me with feelings of how I nearly lost him. I appreciate every moment we have together on this earth, but hey!!! We´re only in our 60s That´s not old these days.

Thank you again. xx

Melissa Flagg COA OSC from Rural Central Florida on April 01, 2012:

Yes, the little one is ours. She's 5 now, that picture is a bit old, but I love it. We started homeschooling recently, which has been lots of fun.

I try not to let the fears get the better of me, and most of the time they only serve to remind me of how lucky I am and that I need to appreciate him now. You inspired me to edit my hub on my hubby to show that appreciation. Congrats btw to you and your hubby for 43 years. That's just fantastic! I wish you many, many more!

Bronwen Scott-Branagan from Victoria, Australia on April 01, 2012:

I know how you feel and you express it so well. Without our other half we seem to be only half a person and it takes time to rebuild the whole. I hope you don't have to for many years.

Dim Flaxenwick (author) from Great Britain on April 01, 2012:

I was 18 in 1969 when we lay on the grass listening to Bob Dylan sing.. ´´ Lay, lady, lay,´ for the 1st time. 43 years when the month of May arrives this year.

I understand your fears. Don´t let them take away your joy. Bless you and the little one I assume is yours in the pic?

Melissa Flagg COA OSC from Rural Central Florida on April 01, 2012:

You know you're work is good when you make yourself cry with it!

We are young, but we're old souls, we seem to see things much differently than most. I realize he can be taken away at any moment, and that's what scares me. Life makes no guarantees. But it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. I finally know what that statement means and I think you do as well. How long have you and your husband been together?

Dim Flaxenwick (author) from Great Britain on April 01, 2012:

Hello daughter of Maat, pleased to meet you on hubpages....

Didn´t mean to make you cry, but to be honest, when I read it before publishing , I only got half way through before the tears were flowing. The I started laughing, because I´m crying over my own work..

I loved where you said , ´´He has made me who I am, without him I wouldn´t be me´ because that is exactly how I feel. My husband has been my backbone so many times when I´ve lacked confidence,.

You are young. You have a long life together to enjoy eachother, I´m sure.

Bless you for your comment.

Dim Flaxenwick (author) from Great Britain on April 01, 2012:

Hi acaetnna,

Oh what a compliment for me. You are the queen of romantic poems .

I am so glad you liked it.

Thank you.

acaetnna from Guildford on April 01, 2012:

Wow what a deep and profound love you have. This poem was totally awesome and I can so relate to it. Thank you Dim - you are a star. Voting up and pressing those butoons as I always do.

Melissa Flagg COA OSC from Rural Central Florida on April 01, 2012:

I cried all the way through this because this is one of my worst nightmares. Losing my husband would be the end of my world. I have no idea how I'd live without him. How do you live without your soul mate? He has made me who I am, without him, I just wouldn't be me. Giving yourself completely to another person is the most rewarding experience, but it is also the most devastating. Just thinking of losing my husband sends me into depression and tears. I can't imagine how I would be if it actually happened. Goddess forbid.

Voted up and beautiful.

Dim Flaxenwick (author) from Great Britain on April 01, 2012:

Best wishes to you too, Lesley.

I appreciate your comment. Thanks.

Hubby and I are SO Un romantic in the conventional sense, I was afraid of hearing ´´ pass the sick bag´..

Dim Flaxenwick (author) from Great Britain on April 01, 2012:

Hi billybuc

Thanks for the lovely comment. Glad you are one of the privelaged few, these days, like us.

It breaks my heart to see so many people seperate when they could maybe work it out.

Movie Master from United Kingdom on April 01, 2012:

Dim this is so very beautiful - so much love....

Voting up/beautiful and sharing.

Best wishes Lesley

Dim Flaxenwick (author) from Great Britain on April 01, 2012:

Hi mckbrdsks

Thanks for visiting my page and leaving a nice comment.

Bill Holland from Olympia, WA on April 01, 2012:

Beautiful tribute to your love! I so understand your sentiment. Ain't love wonderful?? When I first met Bev I could not imagine feeling the way I do now, but now I can't fathom a life without her. Oh sure, I could go on, but so much of the joy would be gone.

mckbirdbks from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas on April 01, 2012:

You ask tough questions. And write nice poetry.

Dim Flaxenwick (author) from Great Britain on April 01, 2012:

A beautiful comment that touches MY heart, pinhawk,.

Thank you so much.

pinkhawk from Pearl of the Orient on March 31, 2012:

I can feel the extreme and overwhelming love here that was formed over the years. It touched the deepest emotion in me, I can imagine how great your love story is... apparently the reason why you have made such a moving piece...

Hope I could find the love that would lasts as long as I live...

Dim Flaxenwick (author) from Great Britain on March 31, 2012:

Thank you Sonya.

I appreciate you taking the time to read and comment.

Sonya L Morley from Edinburgh on March 31, 2012:

Oh this is a beautiful, moving tribute to your love, I really felt your emotion, very much voted up!