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Will There Be Answers?

Patricia is someone whose life is centered around family. Each day is one more opportunity to show my loved ones how much they mean to me.

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So questions many ….so many answers sought.

Thinking that if I waited and was still and patient that what troubled me would work itself out, calm would once again reign, and all would be right with my soul Not then.. Not yet.

When I first began this entry, my thoughts about seeking answers were really of a personal nature. Events and circumstances in my life have caused me to turn inward and think on those things and why they happened and how things will turn out in the end.

And then....so much began to happen in our world that my mind began to swirl and still does to this day.

As I witness all that is unfolding before our eyes, my little pea brain struggles to make sense of it all. Questions continue to flood my mind.

I hear answers and explanations but they, for me, are not adequate. They just do not seem to make sense for me.

Thankful for Listening, Understanding Lovelies

When others have come to me in times of their lives when they felt as I do, I have often replied “Let go and let God.” And some have said that to me recently as I try to make sense of this miasma in which I find myself entangled. Truthfully I am trying. But,{ and there is almost always a but} at present that is not working.

Now I know. My mind knows that God is here just as He has always been. I did go through a period of time when I was clinically depressed some 40 years ago now when I could no longer feel His presence. There was no sense that His power was with me. As time passed and my depression healed itself, that sense of separation from my divine power disappeared and once again I was able to feel. Not just the presence of that power but just to feel…anything….something I had been devoid of during that frightening time.

Thankfully I am not depressed. This experience is much different. Besieged with so many questions with no answers at the ready is troublesome, frightening, and, at times, overwhelming.

Fortunately my life is filled with many kindred spirits who are willing, at any hour, to welcome me into their home or listen to me prattle on in some form of technological connection.Those lovelies do provide listening ear I need. They listen and commiserate and offer their thoughts for me to mull over then and later.

My mind goes to a quote from Francis Bacon….when he said “Some books are to be tasted; others are to be swallowed and some few to be chewed and digested.” For me it is that way with what I hear from others and hopefully they do the same with words that are said by me when they come to me when they are troubled. Some of what is said by those who offer solace to me will hear be heard and appreciated but not internalized. And that is as it should be. For this is, after all, a journey that I am making and searching for answers that will make sense. At present they do not seem close at hand.

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What to do?

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As I sit to write this my thoughts keep going to the state of our country and our world at present. How can I be writing about what concerns me individually when a state of confusion and unrest exists here and afar? Is not what is happening of concern to me? The answer is a resounding “YES” it is. Which further compounds the situation...again….more questions. Should each one of us look in the mirror and ask what we have done to allow this divisiveness to occur?

Too many times we look to blame someone else; no one, it seems, wishes to have accountability for anything. EVERYTHING has become politicized and finger pointing is endless. And NO answers are forthcoming. I have watched silently as our nation is being destroyed. History is being rewritten. If I speak out about concerns that I have I am termed a racist. And that is okay; I can take it because I know nothing is further from the truth.

And it is a belief of mine that much of what is occurring is orchestrated by those who are using it to further their own agenda.PROTESTING is one thing----it is a legitimate and needed. To what end though. If those who protest want to help change things that is a good and noble. It is just that I am entitled to say my thoughts without fear of others blasting me. This is my opinion. You are entitled to yours and I respect your right to voice it.

We cannot make anything better if we do not find a common ground that makes sense and will empower us to keep our nation safe and strong. At present we are teetering on the brink of collapse …what lies ahead will depend on each one of us.

This article is not intended to be a diatribe on politics. Each of us has our opinion and each of us needs to DO what it takes to help fix our nation.

Why is there no Bone Marrow Match for him?

What challenges him today?

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Why have all of the treatments she has undergone not worked?

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Happiness despite the challenges

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I have always been much better at asking questions than knowing what the answers were.

— Bill James

She smiles when many would not

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Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important thing is not to stop questioning.

— Albert Einstein

Sometimes the questions are complicated, and the answers are simple.

— Dr. Seuss

Don't just learn, experience.

Don't just read, absorb.

Don't just change, transform.

Don't just relate, advocate.

Don't just promise, prove.

Don't just criticize, encourage.

Don't just think, ponder.

Don't just take, give.

Don't just see, feel.

Don’t just dream, do.

Don't just hear, listen.

Don't just talk, act.

Don't just tell, show.

Don't just exist, live.”

— Roy T. Bennett

Lean on me

I hope that if anyone else has found a similar experience as mine will find some tiny measure of comfort in knowing someone else is facing this challenge as well.

Questions loom. Answers remain elusive.

Looking through quotes like the ones I have shared and seeking out others to commiserate with does not erase the questions. It does remind me I am not alone.

But I remain forever optimistic.

This content is accurate and true to the best of the author’s knowledge and is not meant to substitute for formal and individualized advice from a qualified professional.

© 2021 Patricia Scott

Comments

Patricia Scott (author) from North Central Florida on October 10, 2021:

Thank you for stopping by. Every day is a new day to be thankful and to soldier on. We all have challenges and unanswered questions. How we tackle them is an individual decision. I honestly try to embrace each day and count each way we are blessed. Angels are headed your way this evening ps

Patricia Scott (author) from North Central Florida on October 10, 2021:

Manatita. I always am so appreciative of your thoughtful comments. So much to consider and absorb. Each day we meet each other here on HubPages helps to make us grow. Yes, been away far too long.

And sometimes I do feel I am may be too busy to

"think". But somehow my mind takes over and it is all good. I hope all is good with you and yours. Angels are headed your way this evening ps

Patricia Scott (author) from North Central Florida on October 10, 2021:

Pamela, I do know what you mean. You having your struggles could give up. But rather you have chosen to forge ahead and be thankful for each day. You are an inspiration. Thank you for stopping. Angels are headed your way this evening ps

Patricia Scott (author) from North Central Florida on October 10, 2021:

Thank you for stopping by. In searching and questioning, we find strength and answers I do believe. Hope all is good with you. Angels are headed your way this evening. ps

Patricia Scott (author) from North Central Florida on October 10, 2021:

Thank you, Shauna. You know, many many families have challenges like we do. We did not ask for them by any means but are finding we have grown smarter and wiser because of them. Hope all is good with you. Angels are headed your way this evening ps

Patricia Scott (author) from North Central Florida on October 10, 2021:

When I am soul-searching, I often turn to quotes for some words of wisdom and solace. Thank you for stopping. Angels are headed all the way to you in Nigeria. ps

Patricia Scott (author) from North Central Florida on October 10, 2021:

Thanks, Liz. I learn so much as I read of experiences of others here on HubPages. It encourages me to write about my thoughts. Angels are headed your way this evening ps

Patricia Scott (author) from North Central Florida on October 10, 2021:

It surely is about each of us helping each other. That old saying...we get by with a little help from our friends holds so much truth. Take care of you. Angels headed your way this afternoon. ps

BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on October 07, 2021:

It is so hard. There are so many questions I want answers to, but not one makes any sense.

Or at least not the answers I want to hear.

I don't know why good people have bad things happen to them.

I've heard everything from God always takes the best early to he's no longer in pain.

One step at a time. Trying to be grateful for the moments we can share together.

Helplessly letting go of Hope...acknowledging I'm not in Control.

I'm so sorry you are dealing with these heartaches.

May an angel comfort your journey.

Patricia Scott (author) from North Central Florida on October 07, 2021:

We are blessed in so many ways. And whenever I feel a bit overwhelmed, I know that so many others have much much worse to deal with than we do so it keeps me humble.

Thank you for you kind and thoughtful comment. Angels headed your way this evening ps

Patricia Scott (author) from North Central Florida on October 07, 2021:

Buh, buh, buh....sane??? I am the one in the corner saying that. Seriously we get by with a little help from our friends and trying, trying is underscored, not to dwell. Hope all is good with you and yours. Angels are headed your way this evening ps

Patricia Scott (author) from North Central Florida on October 07, 2021:

Thanks Peggy. One day at a time....that is how we navigate. Everyone has stuff!! Hope all is good with you. Angels are headed your way this evening ps

Patricia Scott (author) from North Central Florida on October 07, 2021:

Yes, learning to not be such a control freak. Trying to take one day at a time which is really my mantra. Thank you for stopping by. Hope all is good with you. Angels are headed your way this evening ps

Carolyn Fields from South Dakota, USA on September 20, 2021:

I can relate. Questions without answers. Questions with multiple answers, some correct and some not. Answers before questions have even been asked (this is a new one to me, but I see it happening everywhere with "well-meaning" people offering up answers to questions that I did not ask, and making bold leaps and assumptions in the process).

You are correct in your approach to be still, let go, and seek inner quiet and strength from a higher source. The answers that come from this space are much more reliable.

manatita44 from london on September 20, 2021:

Why don't I just say 'Hello' first, Patricia? Long time! After such a great read, can I still ask how you are? Chuckle.

Frankly, I think of you as a dynamo of energy and sacrifice ... one too busy to think. Haha. I smile with you; not at you. Our Lord has indeed given you many challenges!!

For what it's worth, Guru ji used to tell us, that this world has never been free of problems. We agreed, yet more recently, since Covid-19, I have been looking into it. The Romans were barbaric and many before them. We had Empires that did atrocious things and Moghuls who conquered vast territories.

We had World War 1, plagues and pestilences, the great depression, World War 2 and fast forward and world battles are still continuing. We humans suffer though it all and I have been blessed to have heard of your great endurance in the face of impossible odds.

Yet just as we all have a personal story today, so others had powerful negative experiences in the past and history for us is incomplete, if we cannot see that tread.

Life is not static. It is evolution in motion and Mother Gaia balances herself as and when necessary. Again, we are where we are because of Divine Providence and we cannot move faster than Grace. Yet noting is new, except that it's a world in motion, and change is in motion also.

Again, the five cardinal challenges of greed, ego, attachments, anger and lust are still here, despite word Saviours coming and going.

I have a beautiful piece by Sri Chinmoy that may help. He talks about carrying the past inside us ... but I won't put the link here. Just google 'Sri Chinmoy and we are carrying the past inside us' and the Question and answer, will come up. Hope this helps.

Meanwhile, you still continue to have my prayers and empathy. I might add that no one can change without God's Hour. We are mostly where we are meant to be, that is, until the Karma for that particular lesson, is burnt out. Much Love to you all. Peace.

Pamela Oglesby from Sunny Florida on September 20, 2021:

I am glad to see you writing after such a long absence, Patricia. I like the quote by Francis Bacon.

You have some very difficult problems, and I don't know how to give you peace or hope. We all have problems, but yours are quite serious. On a personal level, I am in a wheel chair most of the time in pain, and I have an upcoming surgery on my neck. I am not depressed either. I know I have to "let go and let God". What else could I do?

As for the divisive nature of our country, I have no answers. I agree everyone has a right to speak their mind. We have so much violence and so many thousands of people on our border. The drugged out homeless people I saw in Philadelphia are heartbreaking too. I wish I had some answers for all our problems, but I do not. I pray our country gets through this difficult time.

I am glad you have a support system, as we all need one. Family and good friends make such a difference in our lives, they help us get through those really tough times. I think you will get through this difficult time too, and I hope you will be able to make some sense out of it.

Miebakagh Fiberesima from Port Harcourt, Rivers State, NIGERIA. on September 20, 2021:

Patricia, good that you remain optimistic forever! You're on a sure foot with God on your side. Continue to ask questions, and sure the answers, great and meaningful will come. Thanks for sharing a wonderful story.

Shauna L Bowling from Central Florida on September 20, 2021:

Patti, it breaks my heart that you and your family have such struggles. Your positive attitude is inspirational. And it's okay to question why. I think anyone would if given your circumstances. The important thing is to keep moving forward, as you are. One day the answers will become clear.

Stay strong and know it's okay to fall. To lean on others.

Peggy Woods from Houston, Texas on September 20, 2021:

Bless your heart, Patricia! I am aware of some of the burdens you carry. Know that you remain in my thoughts and prayers. Sending virtual hugs your way today!

OLUSEGUN from NIGERIA on September 20, 2021:

I love the quotes in your article. Thanks for sharing.

Liz Westwood from UK on September 20, 2021:

Thanks for sharing where you are in order to offer insight and help to others. It is much appreciated and much admired.

Dora Weithers from The Caribbean on September 20, 2021:

Thanks for sharing your thoughts and insights. You cause us to come up with our own insights, and the more we share, the more we help each other with our common struggles.

Bill Holland from Olympia, WA on September 20, 2021:

I don't know how your family has remained sane, PS. I really don't. Talk about a boatload of challenges, and they just continue. It's amazing to me, the depth of your family's character, and their willingness to keep on fighting. God bless your family. God bless you. Sending you hugs on those favorite angels of ours.

John Hansen from Gondwana Land on September 20, 2021:

Hello PS, thank you for sharing. I wish I could offer wise words to console and strengthen you. All I know is that when we write things down and share with others it takes some weight off one’s shoulders.

It is easy to ask “why does God let these things happen?” We all have hard times and struggles, but why do some have to go through so much. Your family has had more than their fair share. I keep thinking of the saying “God doesn’t make you endure more you than you can bear.”

I wish you and your family all the best and pray that things improve.

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