What Do I Really Want in Life?
What Do I really want in life? I am confuse with myself to which path should I go.
This past few weeks I've been searching a lot. I am looking for an online job and I don't know what I do first. I joined some many groups, different apps ,work websites, I downloaded apps that I've heard in facebook that they this app can earn etc. I saw this website through searching on google paying through writing a poem, because I want to showcase my work not just to earn. Maybe the passion of writing leads me here. I love writing but sad to say some of works are gone because my laptop suddenly not working. What do I love in writing is that it gives me life. It helps me to learn things and show my talents. It helps me to bring out my emotion. Writing is like the story of my life in which I put every emotion in typing words that comes out through my head. Every time I'm happy I write. I'm sad and in tears, I write. I'm in love ,I write. Write helps me to remove my anxiety and depression. Writing helps me a lot and this the reason why I wanted this.
Back to the topic. Some groups in says that I should find my own niche. I am not jobless right now but it seems like I am. I did not go to our office 4weeks right now since I sign in here because of these pandemic. My mother don't allow me to work outside because I have a baby. I don't want to risk myself harming my baby. Hoping this corona virus will stop killing and making us sick. But I'm working at home right now but not enough that is the reason why I search a lot.
Do you know the feeling of being stress for not doing anything. I just want to earn and know my passion in life. I tried everything but it seems like its not working.
But even if I'm stress looking for a work, I keep doing it over and over again. What did I do? I enroll free courses to learn and know what I really wanted to do. I watch on youtube for advices. I learn a lot. I will never give give up. There a lot emails on my gmail right now tell me requirements how to apply, what to pass, and sending me an interview. I hope one of those company will hire me someday. Still I keep looking job so things will work out. As they say the more the merrier that only applies to things that matter.
I write this essay to tell what I feel right now. And to tell people
NEVER GIVE UP
YOU WILL NEVER TOO OLD TO FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS
DO YOUR BEST AND SOMEONE WILL GRANT YOUR HARDWORK
BE PROUD OF YOURSELF FOR DOING SOMETHING
LET GOD BE YOUR GUIDANCE TO COMMIT ALL YOUR DREAMS IN LIFE
I love myself and my family this the reason why I'm doing this. Looking forward to a new job someday. I will update this soon if I made it for testimonial.