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To Forgive Myself is Harder Still...

Just me, explaining myself through Poetry words. Words that have been in my head for years. Now inviting you to read and see what you think?

An Upsetting Loss to Buffalo Bills in a 1993 AFC Play-off game...after the Oilers had pretty much clinched the game at 1/2 time...has made a lasting impression in Houston Sports...and NFL History reels...that has been a hard thing to forget!

An Upsetting Loss to Buffalo Bills in a 1993 AFC Play-off game...after the Oilers had pretty much clinched the game at 1/2 time...has made a lasting impression in Houston Sports...and NFL History reels...that has been a hard thing to forget!

Some of the Highlights (or low-lights...for Houston fans) of this...

A testament...to my stubborn will...

To Forgive Myself...is harder still.

For all the dumb things I have done...

When I should've stood my ground...instead of being on the run.

As if forgetting about things...makes them go away...

Often...when they return to me...I find they're there to stay.

Forgiving ain't easy...but it can be liberating...if done with proper intentions...

I don't know the true meaning of Forgiveness...it defies all dictionary definitions.

I find the hardest one to forgive at all...

Is the one staring back at me...From the Mirror on the Wall.

Of all the dumb things I've done...and after all the stupid mistakes I’ve made...

You think I would slice down through the meat of the issue...like a sharp blade.

But I sit and grumble out loud...while my brain spins 'round and 'round...

And search within myself for forgiveness...which is nowhere to be found.

The things I recall from long ago...that always start with a "should'a"...

Won't change a thing about today...No matter how much that I wish...they "could'a".

Yet here I sit...with an angry heart...for all the decisions to which I thought of...

"Choices"...and the pathway they went ...have to be corrected by the One ab-ove.

It is too much for me...to look at all I hold myself accounted for...

When unleashed upon me...they knock my Spirit down...to the floor.

Those "Choices" surround me...and dance around...and haunt me so...

To learn to Forgive Myself...takes more out of me... than I'll ever know.

It can be done...However...It takes more strength to forgive me from the inside...

Then I've ever known...So I'll just carry my stubborn attitude along...further on the ride.

And wait till a change is made...at a higher price...of that...to which... I can ever give...

And finally, be free...from that heartache within...that holds me back...so that I can truly live.

"GLOOM, DESPAIR AND AGONY ON ME...OOOH-OOOO...DEEP, DARK DEPRESSION...EXCESSIVE MISERY...OOOH-OOOO!"  From the TV Show "Hee-Haw" (1969 -1992) What a Great "Country-themed" Variety Show!

"GLOOM, DESPAIR AND AGONY ON ME...OOOH-OOOO...DEEP, DARK DEPRESSION...EXCESSIVE MISERY...OOOH-OOOO!" From the TV Show "Hee-Haw" (1969 -1992) What a Great "Country-themed" Variety Show!

"OOOH-OOOO!"

[A Point Made by a Poet: Not much more I could I add to this poem...A poem is a poem....it says...what it says. If having a small word count affects your rating on Google...then "kiss my backdoor"...So be it. It is ridiculous to have a Website that offers Poetry...then judge it by the same standards as the Articles...on that same Website!]

Billy Jack, 1971. | Tom laughlin, Classic hats, American ...

Billy Jack, 1971. | Tom laughlin, Classic hats, American ...

Billy Jack's Movie Quote About Mistakes:

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Billy Jack Movie Quote: Image result for thunderheart movie quotes | Martial arts ...

Link to the Movie Quote:

  • Billy Jack (1971) - Memorable quotes
    Billy Jack: Martin, do you know what mental toughness is? Well, mental toughness is the ability to accept the fact that you're human and that you're going to make mistakes - lots of 'em - all your life.

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