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The Rain Drips From Her Fingertips

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H.C Porter aka Holly writes prose poetry. She writes about her life experiences as a way to heal and help others that can relate.

Stop the pain at the source-Stop the Violence

It's more than the sound of a mirror breaking...It's the sound of your dreams shattering that hurts.

It's more than the sound of a mirror breaking...It's the sound of your dreams shattering that hurts.

She never learned to walk to walk from his world.

As the rain pounds down upon the earth,
It assists to complete the sadness within her.
Her tears hit the floor and she stops to think,
Perhaps this world has already gotten the best out of me?


I'm afraid when the clouds dissipate,
There will be nothing worth wanting to love,
and no one left for me to hate.


As the rain touches her skin,
She begins to tense up from within.
I wish I could cry but I am so tired I can’t even try,
and I wish I was home again.

As the rain drips from her finger tips,
She is stripped down to who she is.
I am so cold and I am sure I am lost,
If this is my payment then what was the cost?


As the rain mixes with her tears,
She is terrified of all that she fears.
She looks up to heaven and sees a shooting star,
And begins to prays she can figure out where she should start.

This is your life- This is your world

As she stands knee deep in the rain,
She sees a rainbow fade to gray.
Her smile slowly goes away.


"That is where I think I should be,
but I'll never get there because I can not walk in-order to leave."


"Get out of the rain-you stupid girl.
What is wrong with you," he says to her.


Her eyes fill back up with tears,
as she feels his words that never have time to heal.


Breathe in deep-breathe in once more.
This is your life, this is your world.
Everything you asked for-but nothing you want.
What happened when it happened to her?

the-rain-drips-from-her-fingertips

Have I already lost?

Nothing ever happened to that stupid girl.
She never learned to walk to walk from his world.
He spoke words that cut and hurt,
Each phrase digging deeper to torment her.


When he is threw, with what damage he can do,
He turns to her and says,


"What a waste you turned out to be.
All the years I have wasted trying to make you good enough for me.
Why have you become this way?
You no longer can think to know what to say?
Your colors have faded to black-
When I look at you-I see nothing that is worth the fight to have,
You’re nothing but a stupid girl-
A waste of space in this world."


No one said life would be fair.
No one said you would have a chance to be right.
You say my name-you said it twice,
but when you spoke with me,
I was no longer bright.


It doesn’t matter-I give up-
The world is empty and my hopes aren't enough.
This is my payment-this is the cost,
Even if I figure it out-I think I have already lost.

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Comments

Adam on June 08, 2015:

Taking the ovievrew, this post is first class

Henry Santos from San Antonio on November 23, 2013:

Amazing. Such tragic beauty. I almost feel wrong admiring it's depth. Very sad place I truly have never been. 2 thumbs up and a big hug Holly!

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on June 06, 2012:

rahul0324- thank you so much for the kindness in your comment. I am humbled :)

Jessee R from Gurgaon, India on June 02, 2012:

Beautiful , epic poetry here..

What can I say that already has not been said..

Respect!

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on June 02, 2012:

Thank you Mike for returning to re-read. Are you still publishing your writings? I haven't taken the time to explore lately, and I need to. Hope you are doing well :)

Mike Lickteig from Lawrence KS USA on June 02, 2012:

Saw your link to this on Facebook and came back to re-read. This was always one of my favorites of your work. Several lines in this really tugged at my heart. Thanks for reminding us all about this beautiful piece of writing.

Mike

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on June 02, 2012:

Thank you Debbie, I appreciate you taking the time to read and to comment. I am glad that you liked it. :)

Deborah Brooks Langford from Brownsville,TX on June 01, 2012:

This is an excellent poem.. I can feel the pain.. so sad..

Beautifully done

debbie

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on January 28, 2012:

Thank you :)

Ov Overo from Oklahoma on January 28, 2012:

It is a great Hub.. Voted Up all the way

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on January 27, 2012:

Capedium, I too refuse to lose hope that tomorrow shall be changed and guide us to all be more brilliant than we were today. Thanks for the comment :)

Ov Overo from Oklahoma on January 22, 2012:

Inspiring, tough, rough.. Brilliant Hub.. And the message is clear and direct. But I ain't loosing hope.

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on December 22, 2011:

Thank you for commenting David- I am glad you felt this poem, if people can not feel the pain written from words of our past- then society is in real trouble, and there is no reason to shed light on such subjects as abuse and violence within a relationship. I appreciate your support and the comment.

David F Bishop on December 22, 2011:

Brings tears to the eyes of my heart.

Paints a picture of pain.

If I were to make a useful and meaningful comment here I do not know what it would be. Hearing is perhaps the only real response I can have. I think your decision to seek healing through writing is something I relate to - for like you I find expression of my hearts depths a road to healing the wounds of life - and like you I find my best expression to be pen/paper. I read your interview with Miss Olive and was struck by the meekness - don't ever let that slip away for it is a beauty of great price.

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on August 19, 2011:

lol... damn straight...cause you the man! :P lol

Raymond D Choiniere from USA on August 19, 2011:

LOL! LOL! That's okay. I don't mind when a beautiful lady wants to stalk me. It only means that I am doing something right. :P

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on August 19, 2011:

Cagsil, I am much better than the time period in which I wrote this poem, but you are correct, no one deserves this hurt nor should they ever believe that they do. Love shouldn't sting...it should tingle :) Thanks for the comment sir, as always I appreciate all your care and support (I found you and am now following you on Twitter) Now I shall really stalk... (HubPages-Facebook and Twitter, OH MY!) :P

Raymond D Choiniere from USA on August 19, 2011:

Hey Holly, sorry I haven't come across this hub earlier and I certainly hope you do not still feel, in the way/manner, for which this hub was written. I can feel the sadness and hopelessness written in context and as always, I'm always available for you. It's a powerful poem and represents a lot of women and their relationships. It's never a nice thing that many men put their partners through, and always remember that their actions, including spoken words always tell you how much they truly love you. When you realize how much they love you, then it is time to walk away, if that love is minimized in any manner. Take care and remain steadfast in who you are. You're truly a beautiful lady who deserves to be treated better than the words you've laid down. Voted Up! :)

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on February 27, 2011:

Ghaelach

Thanks for commenting and for reading my poem... Peace and the world dont fit with the people and ego that is also present... so perhaps you are right...not really a world where peace will be given a fair shot

Ghaelach on February 27, 2011:

Hello H C.

Hard hitting words that i hope these type of people read and maybe just maybe think about what you have written and what it all means. But alas i don't think this world of ours was made for peace. LOL.

Ghaelach

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on December 17, 2010:

rx4u

thanks so much for the comment and you are more than welcome. I hope that my writing gives a little understanding and hope to someone someday.

rx4u on December 16, 2010:

HCP- your writing speaks to the soul. It carries a powerful message and insight into the life of an abuse victim, more importantly it carries an underlying message of support and understanding. Thank you for this! Keep the faith HCP!

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on October 27, 2010:

cheeky girl, thanks for commenting on this poem- this is one of my pieces which I am most proud of. You are correct-the scars caused by abuse are much deeper than the flesh and last must longer than any signs of physical damage.

Cassandra Mantis from UK and Nerujenia on October 25, 2010:

This is so powerful and evocative. Seeing the damage that this abuse does to women - it is horrendous and the damage and scars last for what can be a lifetime. You are good to raise this subject. Well done, a great hub.

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on October 16, 2010:

attemptedhumour,

thanks for reading and commenting on this poem. I hope that the words written can inspire someone to be strong.

attemptedhumour from Australia on October 14, 2010:

It is so often a trap that is hard to escape from, your words may inspire others to make that tough decision and move on to a better place. Good luck from Oz

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on August 08, 2010:

worldgrandeur-

you have indeed given me some food for thought that I am sure will help the ink meet the paper :)

I agree, the minute things become violent or manipulative- the abused should run away- unfortunately, the abused often second guess themselves and make themselves think that they are in the wrong and/or over reacting to a situation. Abusers often have a way about them and a way with twisting words and situations which make the abuse seem appropriate and at times their fault and their deserving punishment.

I hope that each person who has suffered abuse- finds the day that they can take your advice and fly from that world...

worldgrandeur from The Moon on August 07, 2010:

LOL, thanks for the brainstorming.... I hope I didn't weary you out with this? You wanted food to keep your pen writing and I gave you one :)

as for your comment, abused women should leave their abuser immediately. It's their tolerance (much appreciated) with their men that renders them victims at the end! Well, wake you abused women, if they really love you, they'd never hurt you so "spread your wings and prepare to fly"... :)

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on August 07, 2010:

worldgrandeur

Thank you so very much for reading and commenting on another one of my hubs. It is a sad truth in society that so many women live in fear and/or are destroyed by the man that they thought loved them.

I recieved your hub request :) I am brainstorming right now :)

worldgrandeur from The Moon on August 07, 2010:

This is so sad truly! Who would hurt a woman? As for me, I can't hurt this beautiful flower, this giving ocean and tender companion... I've never did and never will...

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on August 01, 2010:

just a voice, thanks for reading and for commenting on this hub. I am sorry that it brought up old pain-but am glad that you shared your compassion for the situation that so many woman are in.

Just A Voice on August 01, 2010:

H.C.~

I found your poem also because of Mike's link to it on one of his hubs. This is such a heart wrenching piece. It made old scars throb in sympathy and anger that another woman has to go through this.

The last part just about tore me up;

It doesn’t matter-I give up-

The world is too tough and my hopes aren’t enough.

This is my payment-this is my cost,

Even if I figured it out-I think I have already lost

Love and Peace to all those who are feeling this tonight.

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on August 01, 2010:

Lady_E, thanks for taking the time to read my poem. Mike told me he had left a link because of a verse within this one-I am glad so many of his followers have been able to read and have approved of it. Thank you also for your encouragement :)

Elena from London, UK on August 01, 2010:

A very, very touching Poem. I'm glad I visited your Hub. It was on Mike Lickteig's recent Poem.

Do take care. The Sun is already shining on you.

Best Wishes...

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 31, 2010:

coffeesnob,

Thanks! Mike is a sweetheart, I am so glad that he led you here and allowed you to read some of my work, and it is a bonus that you enjoyed the poem and the meaning which is behind it. Thanks so much!

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 31, 2010:

potterdone120,

I am glad that the first piece of mine which you decided to read was this one (and not one of my earlier pieces), and it was able to win your approval. Thanks for the feedback-hopefully this very big problem in America and in the world will one day be solved, until then-it should not be forgotten what so many live through each and everyday.

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 31, 2010:

John B Badd, Thanks for the comment- I am glad that you were able to gain the insight that you did from reading my poem. I appreciate you taking the time to read and give me such encouraging feedback.

coffeesnob on July 31, 2010:

Led here by Mike-and quite an introduction to you. Your work is touching here and powerful

CS

potterdone120 from LITTLEROCK, AR on July 31, 2010:

This is my first poem to read of yours so !Wow! that's a great piece on a very hard subject to discuss, very sad but a good sad to make people think about what goes on every day in America. Thank You

John B Badd from Saint Louis, MO on July 31, 2010:

Your words put me into a phenomenon I otherwise never would have experienced and gave me new insights into abuse - Great Poem

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 19, 2010:

Thank you Tony for your comment and for taking the time to read this poem- I am glad that you liked it (even if it is quite sad)

Tony McGregor from South Africa on July 19, 2010:

A beautiful poem about a sad subject. There is something so sad about the lines "She is stripped down to who she is / I am so cold and I am sure I am lost, / If this is my payment then what was the cost?"

Just too sad!

Love and peace

Tony

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 18, 2010:

blaise25, Thank you so much for reading and commenting on this hub. I am glad that you enjoyed it and carried something with you away from it after reading.

Fehl Dungo from close to you... on July 17, 2010:

I am so moved..this is my first read and I'll be back again ;) Very heartfelt piece

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 17, 2010:

heyju,

Thank you for the compliment. I appreciate you taking the time to read and comment on this hub, it is such an important subject

heyju on July 16, 2010:

I'm at a loss for words...awesome work...

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 15, 2010:

notquitecorso,

Thanks for coming back :) and I am sorry about your finger nails- I know that the pain that abuse causes is in need of your type of compassion rather than feeling sorry for the abused. I greatly appreciate your compliment about candor- it means a great deal to me and lets me know that the subject matter was written with truth, delicacy and compassion that it deserves.

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 15, 2010:

italmeanssomethin,

I hope your wounds find some healing power here in the hubs- I understand the pain that you are attempting to come to terms with. I thank you for reading and commenting on this hub-and my thoughts and prayers will be with you while you find some closure to the experiences you have survived.

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 15, 2010:

Pearldiver- thank you for the comment. This is a strong scary subject within the world that needs more attention, to limit the amount of abuse in existence.

notquitecorso from Portland, Oregon on July 14, 2010:

I know I've commented before on this piece...but I was re-reading it on my lunch break today...My throat is literally tight upon finishing...also I'm pretty sure I chewed through a fingernail...this piece just stabs my heart...not with tragedy, but with compassion...I admire your candor when it comes to subject matter.

Stephanie Jean on July 14, 2010:

I just joined hubpages a couple of days ago. My intention is to write my heart out, but first I have to heal from being in an abusive relationship. Your words are beautiful. And they speak to my heart unlike others that don't really know how something like that can tear you apart. But thank you. I enjoyed reading it and knowing that there is more of us out there who are strong enough to leave.

Rob Welsh from Tomorrow - In Words & NZ Time. on July 14, 2010:

Nice HC, Good words, Sad subject; Strong message.. thank you for this. Domestic violence is certainly a horrible fact; one that has the ability to remove one's right to be whole and one's right to be happy. Take care.

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 12, 2010:

Tom-

lol, well at least you got the sense that it is good and not a sense that it sucks, lol. I do appreciate you taking the time to read and to comment, I know you are not a huge poetry buff-so I am grateful you liked this one :)

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 12, 2010:

epigramman, thanks for reading and commenting :) There are alot of these women out in the world...I bet they could all use a little hug :)

tom hellert from home on July 12, 2010:

HC glad to see your still firing away - One heck of a poem- unfortunately I am not sure why i thinkk it is good- I just sense it is good-

TH

epigramman on July 12, 2010:

gee I wish I could reach out and give this person a hug!

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 12, 2010:

notquitecorso, Wow that was a very nice comment to leave- I think I may actually be blushing. Thank you so much for reading and for taking a moment to leave a comment, I appreciate the feedback on this hub-being that it is such an important subject for many.

notquitecorso from Portland, Oregon on July 12, 2010:

This is a tour de force...I love it...Just amazing gravity to your piece, not just because of the subject matter. I love finding talent like this...I will be back H.C. Porter...great name by the way

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 12, 2010:

Daniel Carter,

Thank you sir for your comment and for your kindness...all that is spoken, unspoken and understood, it is very much appreciated :)

Daniel Carter from Salt Lake City, Utah on July 12, 2010:

"I am afraid when the clouds dissipate/There will be nothing, worth wanting to love-/Or no one left to hate."

That description and feeling is *always* the fear of the abused. ALWAYS. We know it too well.

However, there is beauty and acceptance and love beyond the battleground. It's takes a while to see when we are so used to only seeing the rain, tears, blood and battle. But we can learn to walk in the sunshine and not be burned. We can walk in peace, although letting go of familiar abuse and battle is scary. It's a process, not a destination.

Powerful writing, my friend. I send my highest, best, and kindest to you, for all the reasons spoken and unspoken.

http://updatedcourtinfo.com on July 11, 2010:

H.C Porter: You're telling a story for millions of abused women and children all around the world and hopefuly... as a result of your posting this awareness hub... one abused child will go to bed tonight...and not be abused tomarrow! I think this story is very powerful and touches the fabric of one's soul. Thank you for writing it!

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 10, 2010:

silverfoxygirl108,

Thank you as well for taking the time to read and to comment. Your compliment means very much to me.

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 10, 2010:

mistrunner, thank you for taking the time to read and to comment-I appreciate the compliment and thoughts. I agree that no one should ever be made to feel this way, but sometimes you find yourself in a world you were not meant for, and when you come to---you're truly lost in how to leave. Does not matter if it is a man or woman...we all deserve happiness and support from the ones who 'LOVE' us.

silverfoxygirl108 on July 10, 2010:

Ditto. No one deserves to be treated that way. You expressed it perfectly.

mistrunner on July 10, 2010:

Mate that was one deep peice of work. I can only hope it's not personal. No woman deserves to be treated in that manner, but shamefully to us men it does, WEll written mate beautiful peace of art.

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 09, 2010:

Hi Mike...thanks for coming back. I am alright. Life is crazy and busy...leaving little time to do anything but the chores :)

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 09, 2010:

ladyjane-thank you ma'am for your comment-I am so glad that you could read and comment,, I truly appreciate the feedback.

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 09, 2010:

miss jkim-

Thank you for your comment-I truly appreciate you taking the time to read and to comment. I hope that no woman or man for that matter, ever endures the hurt caused by abuse of any sorts...

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 09, 2010:

Deborah...you are welcome-thank you for taking the time to read :)

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 09, 2010:

Veronica, you are correct Ma'am...abuse is abuse-it doesnt matter if it involves physical contact or mental manipulations...it destroys just the same

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 09, 2010:

doormatnomore-

Thank you, although I can never find the words that describe perfectly the hurt that a woman feels when she begins to give up-I am glad that I could write something that made sense to readers

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 09, 2010:

kaltopsyd, thank you for your comment, I am glad that it was able to touch a few hearts and a few nerves

Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 09, 2010:

saddlerider,

thank you for your words-I truly hope some women that need to rethink the relationship they are in-have a chance to read this and maybe think about leaving.

Mike Lickteig from Lawrence KS USA on July 09, 2010:

Hope you're doing okay, HC!

Mike

ladyjane1 from Texas on July 09, 2010:

Very touching poem it touched me deeply and made me want to cry for those that are abused. Cheers.

miss_jkim on July 09, 2010:

Very strong, very heart wrenching, and quite a piece to share with other young women in abusive relationships.

Thanks for your bravery.

Deborah Demander from First Wyoming, then THE WORLD on July 09, 2010:

What a strong, painful piece of writing. Thank you for writing this.

Namaste.

Veronica Allen from Georgia on July 08, 2010:

These words are so heartwrenching, and so much so due to the fact that they are all so real for many women. The feelings of being trapped, having no hope, loneliness and torment ring loud and clear. No matter form it takes on (physical, mental, emotional), abuse changes your entire psyche.

DoorMattnomore on July 08, 2010:

"As she feels the words that never seem to have time to heal"

wow. Like Mike says, your words are special.

Mike Lickteig from Lawrence KS USA on July 07, 2010:

HC, your poem brought tears to my eyes. I was struck by the words, "perhaps the world has already gotten the best out of me?". I felt sad and inadequate when I read the final words, "I may have already lost." No one should have to think such thoughts, but so many people do. It is an injustice that anyone should be made to feel this way.

Take care, and thanks for writing from the heart again. Your words are special.

Mike

kaltopsyd from Trinidad originally, but now in the USA on July 07, 2010:

I'm with saddlerider. What a poignant poem. It made me want to cry. Thank you so much for sharing.

saddlerider1 on July 07, 2010:

What a poignant and heart pounding piece. Abuse and the loss of one's dignity by being forced upon by another is a crying shame, I to have lived with abuse as a child not an adult, however it took years to get past what I saw happening to my mother. I pray that abuse and homelessness will STOP but sadly it will continue to shatter the hopes and dreams of many children and adults alike. Thank you for the share. Peace and hugs

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