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My Massive Deleting Spree

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Val is an out-of-the-box writer often questioning the validity of many popular tenets of cultural paradigm..

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Befriending Delete Button

These days I have deleted (so far) 114 out of my 213 hubs which I had piled up over the past 6 years of writing on this site.

All poems, except for a single one that I am somehow sentimentally attached to ("Who Am I Without Others' Labels"); also, almost everything having to do with politics, religion, and Covid-19.

So what is left? Just some stuff referring to my true niche -- psycho-philosophy of living. And even there I got rid of many, as I realized how I had been doing the same what many popular authors on the culture market do -- paraphrase their basic messages under different titles.

Now I see it as a kind of insult to the intelligence of the readers, because if they "didn't get it" the first time around (how they are responsible for their emotional crap), why bother rewording it in different articles.

As for my poems, well, I tried to leave a life message in form of some truism in each, not delivering it in a form that's "prescribed" by the theory of poetry -- caring more about the content than form, while just narrating about everyday emotional experiencing never had a true appeal for me.

But then, like I've been saying it, poetry is not my cup of tea in the first place; just a lazy way of saying something within the required minimum of 750 words (including an introduction), rather than type over 1250 words on the same subject.

I have wanted to do this massive deleting for quite some time, but, I guess, like any literary parent, didn't want to abandon my babies just because I stopped recognizing my true genetic signature in them.

Namely, they are not "me". I may have had fun satirizing politics, even going playful about asking uncomfortable questions to religionists, just for the hell of it (no pun intended) -- but in all honesty, I don't really give a rat's ass about any of that stuff.

Lately I have been a lot into some new versions of my regular esoteric-while- scientifically-based practices, which -- to say it briefly -- require that I clean out of myself what I am not. That brings to mind (again) that little anecdote about Michelangelo being asked how he sculptured "David" -- upon which the great artist said: "Very simply; I took a granite block, and chipped off everything that was not David".

Now, goes without saying -- result of my "chipping" won't make me famous, but it's merely a genuine answer to my inner call of these days, which then happens to reflect on this deleting.

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About Socializing Via Comments

I always enjoyed corresponding with my friends. When in high school back in my native country of Croatia, I ordered five addresses from this Pen Pal Directory in Denmark -- to practice English, and to learn about far away places.

All were girls, but of course -- Louise from Canada, Shirley from Australia, Mary from Indonesia, Renata from (then) East Germany, and my favorite -- Susana from Argentina.

I stopped writing when I commenced my army service, because (then) Communist Yugoslavia forbade it for reasons of securing military secrets. Then half a century later, now an "old-timer immigrant" in Canada I got this idea to try getting in touch with Susana -- since I still knew her old address by heart.

So, here we are again, loving our cyber-friendship more than ever, and having our interesting discussions -- since she is a long time practitioner in psychoanalysis.

Why am I telling you all this? Because I want to show how I have nothing against a meaningful and interesting exchanges of ideas and experiences.

But then it all becomes a different story as we are talking about exchanging comments in Hub Pages routine. Namely, it's based on a favor-for-favor principle, at times downright shallow in its patterned, repetitive fashion, while just pampering each other's writer's ego

Some are leaving an impression of merely being happy to repeatedly expose their name below anything written. Others praising some literary crap, or encouraging those who should have taken collecting stamps or bird watching for a hobby instead of writing.

When I saw people getting so upset over Maven's cutting off the comment feature, it appeared obvious how so many are using their written pieces just for a chance to socialize.

Those political zealots are luckier, as they can vent their chronic pissed-off disposition in Forums, ever hoping to find a sparring-partner "of different tribe-feathers in their headset" for an argument.

Rarely could I have been caught jumping into such discussions, trying to dump some cold water of logic on that political inferno, "calling for a common ground needed for a harmony which only makes a country strong". But no one would comment -- it's like I dared spoiling their arguments by calling for peace.

That satirist in me had no problem envisioning a bunch of bored people getting up in the morning, and turning their laptops on to see some friendly faces and read some friendly comments -- for an easier way to face the world.

But then, it's not always my satirist voicing its observations -- many a time it all looks so cute how people from all over the world gather at one place to express their opinions and spill out their hearts in poetry.

So it must be all about perception, and let's stay with that explanation.

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Why Bother Announcing

Believe it or not, but my second-most-visited article has been about how to win against a meddling mother-in-law. Not those about fixing our own psycho-physical models of functioning; not those addressing our own flaws which keep us in a chronic pissed mood -- but the one fixing "someone else's" behavior.

So, I have learned my lessons about the type of readership I am dealing with -- albeit, with no other topics among my interests. Like, God Himself must know that I would die before writing down a cooking recipe -- so I got stuck with my own niche, not being particularly popular on this Literary Fair.

I kept writing as if that lesson never made me smarter. Many a time did I get this distinct sense about our operating on different frequencies, or, as I prefer forming it -- using a different "technology of reasoning".

Writing to me was all about expressing myself, but then come these moments when I become increasingly aware how my sharing it with others is mostly of a diary-type, or sharing it with myself.

Recently, our fine, and undoubtedly one of the most informative writers, Glenn Stok, revealed to us, that there are currently some over 32,000 members in our community of writers.

Not knowing anything about that figure, I always thought that there must have been so many more than we see daily participating on the Feed, meaning those who are somehow failing to surprise us with their unfamiliar names in comments. All the same bunch to be seen day after day, maybe 30-50 of these regulars.

So, to them I am telling about this decision of mine to reduce my "writer's opus", and possibly to not contribute much more in the future.

Why bother announcing?

That satirist in me is rushing to say -- not necessarily because so many would really care what I decide to do one way or the other. And yet, I felt like announcing it, so that some don't think how I have died, since I am not coming up with anything new.

Then, some rare ones who might take trouble to take a peek at my list of articles, might come up with an idea that Editors have "unfeatured" all those articles.

Yes, you wouldn't believe what ideas people may get, and I already have had such a crazy experience, including the one where I "got banned", I am "using HP for seeking dates" (in my 70's??!!), I am "using a photo of someone younger for my Profile", or, I am "a con-artist" -- stuff like that.

Just to prevent such "friendly" interpretations of my "literary silence", I decided to explain it to any of those who might be missing me, or those missing me with each bullet.

Will I ever write some more? I don't know. With my private quest for my alternate truth, I am dwelling a lot in my personal unknown, allowing any other potential version of me to surface, driven by some half dozen practices like kundalini awakening, Small Universe meditation, qigong, self-hypnosis, autophagy through 19 hours of intermittent fasting, and bliss-at-will.

Thus, just like I am not taking a counsel of the teenage-me for my present decision making, so I am not deciding now for any future version of my mind that might unfold from my unique mental model of functioning.

In any case, I most certainly wish all of you guys and dolls all fun and success that you can derive from writing and commenting.

We are all so different -- and wasn't it meant to be this way?

© 2021 Val Karas

Comments

BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on July 10, 2021:

Val

Thank you.

I'll be looking forward to hearing from you now & then.

I can picture you in your everyday peaceful state with your friendly smile.

We don't need those chemicals to make our life right...but I'm still puffing away those cigarettes.

Embrace life my friend.

Val Karas (author) from Canada on July 10, 2021:

Rodric29 -- It's good to see your determination in that matter, as long as you don't regret it one day -- if you happen to read somewhere how "it's good to amass a lot of articles, and even those looking useless count". So, do it, if you really needed just a little push in that direction -- not if you only got momentarily inspired by my article.

Rodric Anthony Johnson from Surprise, Arizona on July 10, 2021:

ValKara, the thoughts simmered in the back of my mind for over a year. I saw the articles in my list and passed them up for revamping. Your article gave me the extra push that I need to delete them. I had already started when I found your article through emge. I am kicking it up a notch. The articles are outdated and have no interest from me. Your writing did me a favor. You showed me a path and I decided it is worth taking in earnest instead of with sentimental resentment.

Val Karas (author) from Canada on July 10, 2021:

Rodrick29 -- My views are not trying to look normative, and it's up to each person's reasoning and intellectual taste what they want to make of their participation at Hub Pages.

So, I can't tell you if it's "right" or "wrong" thing for you to follow my example and delete any of your work, or if it's "justified" to derive pleasure from commenting.

Actually, here and there I may review those left over articles, and maybe edit them a little, but at the moment it doesn't feel like I will add any new ones. I have other passions in life that are simply not "compatible" with the routine of writing and socializing at HP, no matter how much I may genuinely like those talented folks and their personalities.

So, like the saying goes -- "follow your own bliss", my friend.

Rodric Anthony Johnson from Surprise, Arizona on July 10, 2021:

ValKara, from your article, I thought you basically wee saying goodbye. I am glad you still answer comments. I do not have the expectation that you will, however, based on that article.

With that in mind, I wrote my comment and you still answered! I wrote a poem to one of Brenda Aldredge's word prompts called "Celebrated!" I am one of those that like a little celebrity, pats on the back like a puppy in life, and when it comes to my writing--whether the feedback is good or bad.

Recognition is recognition! That poem to Brenda's--me being familiar and social just like you pointed out in the article--word prompt was the most honest I have been in writing, published writing. This article seems like an unfurling. It inspired me to go through and either revamp some articles or delete them. Some of the political articles I believe I will simply delete after reading this.

Val Karas (author) from Canada on July 10, 2021:

manatita 44 -- Yes, it's my "spring cleaning in July, and it's not the first time that it's coming chronologically a kind of "late" -- although my first cleanups came at time when other kids' noses were still wiped by their mothers.

I am grateful for every adversity, which in a very small ways includes these little calls for a moving on.

What makes every awakening so sweet is this realization that we've been asleep.

Blessings, my far away friend.

Val Karas (author) from Canada on July 10, 2021:

Treshty -- Well, on my spiritual path I never spared myself from "saying it as it is", and at those first steps that honesty was mostly very uncomfortable. Likewise, in my articles, I tried to apply the same direct approach, not pampering people's sensitivities. That may be the reason -- beside my limited use of English as my second language -- that I was not particularly popular. Don't ask me if that cost me any ego's pain, lol.

Enjoy your activities at Hub Pages, it's a good platform for literary self-expression, and people are nice as well.

Thanks for the nice comment.

Val Karas (author) from Canada on July 10, 2021:

Rodric29 -- I am happy to see that my article got your attention, especially since you are so selective at what you read. And it's my pleasure to respond with these little words of gratitude. I may not have commented on others' hubs, but I never intentionally left someone's comment unanswered.

All the best to you, my friend.

Val Karas (author) from Canada on July 10, 2021:

Rodric29 -- I am happy to see that my article got your attention, especially since you are so selective at what you read. And it's my pleasure to respond with these little words of gratitude. I may not have commented on others' hubs, but I never intentionally left someone's comment unanswered.

All the best to you, my friend.

Val Karas (author) from Canada on July 10, 2021:

emge -- Calling it a "courage" may not be a right word, my friend, because it's more like a simple "relief", upon this realization that much of my writing was not an adequate literary expression of who I am, just a playful getting carried away with exploring. I did enjoy those literary excursions, but then, it comes the time to "come home".

Be well, and keep enjoying in your writing. Thanks for your nice words. I am catching myself expressing my gratitude with same words here, as I am responding on several comments from friends -- but how else to say it.

Val Karas (author) from Canada on July 10, 2021:

Peggy -- I don't really deserve any of these nice comments, since I was not leaving any under anybody's work. Be well, my dear, generous friend, and thank you.

Val Karas (author) from Canada on July 10, 2021:

John --Keep doing what you enjoy doing, you found your place and enviable popularity within this nice community of writers. It's useless to compare our motivations for being here -- as the Latin proverb says it: "Si duo faciunt idem -- non est idem" -- meaning "if the two do the same is not same".

Thank you for your friendly words, amigo. I'll make myself visible maybe once a month with a little sign of "still being around". Who knows, maybe I'll even come up with an article -- but for now it doesn't look likely.

All the best.

Val Karas (author) from Canada on July 10, 2021:

Brenda -- To put it all in a right perspective -- it's been some decades since I quit "cold-turkey" my daily coffee, my 6-pack of beer (all alcohol), and my two packs of cigarettes. While advancing my awareness I just reached to the point where I realized that I didn't need that chemical stimulation, because I was already a happy camper.

But did I enjoy them all? You bet. They were just not "me".

Likewise, exploring themes outside of my niche and my interests on Hub Pages was fun in its own right, but then, again, at this point of my inner path they feel as obsolete, doing nothing for me.

As for "finding my peace", lol, I spend much of my day in a state of grace, what I call "orgasmic spirituality", which was hard to recognize in my satirical expressions. There is a hub or two (I won't advertise them here) which describe it.

I am not done with my deleting, and I'll probably bring the number down to 50-60 articles left.

Thank you, sweetie, for your nice words. I'll keep in touch.

manatita44 from london on July 10, 2021:

Some noteworthy spring-cleaning and other ideas. Movement is always to be applauded. Peace

Chrish Canosa from Manila Philippines on July 09, 2021:

What I like most about you Sir Val is your practical philosophy, I sometimes wants to call you a principled man. Who acts with integrity and speak with honesty I really admire that Sir!

Best wishes po!!!

Rodric Anthony Johnson from Surprise, Arizona on July 09, 2021:

You do you, ValKaras. I followed a comment by one of the people that I follow, emge. I do not like reading other people's articles if they don't interest me. Your article interested me only because emge commented. As I read, I like it.

I do not have a large number I follow. I also am on a deleting spree, of sorts.

I am one of those people who seek to socialize from my computer on Hubpages. As you said, we are all different, which is why I will not be offended when I don't receive a reply to this comment. i did not write it for a reply. I like going back and forth, though--in a respectful manner.

MG Singh emge from Singapore on July 09, 2021:

I read your article and it really made me think. I appreciate your viewpoint on comments and deletions. I think your take on comments is bang on. It is some thing like you scratch my back and I scratch yours. You have had the courage to delete your articles somehow I do not have that courage and many are just gathering dust but they remain.

Peggy Woods from Houston, Texas on July 09, 2021:

Whatever takes the place of your writing on this site, I wish you well. Thanks for letting us know. I have gotten a kick out of reading many of your satirical articles. Take care, Val!

John Hansen from Gondwana Land on July 09, 2021:

Val, I understand your reasoning and I appreciate you letting us know your intentions. I couple of “friends” have disappeared from here lately with no explanation and that does get the mind ticking as to what may have happened to them.

That also gets me thinking, “what if something happened to me suddenly?” Would anyone inform the HubPages community..or would people just wonder in a few years time “Remember that Jodah guy, whatever happened to him?”

It is funny how the writing of our own that we ourselves really love, is often that which proves the least popular to readers. I have so much here that gets no traffic at all but I can’t bring myself to get rid of it, because it is special to me or it brings back memories of the time I wrote it.

My gardening articles get the most views consistently and they are also my least creative. I checked my account this morning and see that my “Trapped in a Freakshow” article had a sudden spike in views (60 in one day)..not bad for a six year old article and poem at that.

Anyway, my friend, please keep in touch through emails. It will be a pleasure to hear from you at any time.

BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on July 09, 2021:

Val

Thanks for letting us know.

I don't want to worry about you, but I'm sure I would have if you just disappeared.

I, for one, absolutely love to read your thoughts.

I will miss seeing them.

Writing is a part of my soul, it won't go away quietly.

If others love my work, that's great. I love knowing others can connect with my words.

But I stretch out further than just here.

I hope you find peace in your meditation or wherever your muse takes you.

Drop me a line once in awhile.

Take care my friend & keep being the special man you are.

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