Rinita is a creative writer, with focus on poetry. She delves into several forms including Haiku/Senryu, Sonnets, Free Verse, and Prose.
I lay awake, I lay still,
silent and withdrawn
on my bed, which is my home
for the last year and a half.
I blindly look at the window sill,
waiting for friends who I know not
to come and shed a tear or two
over my invalid, useless soul.
I pray for death to come
soft and quick, and relieve me
from the pain that is not mine,
and the tears that won’t flow.
My brain’s speaking, won’t you hear?
How much I love you all still?
Arms that can’t hold you any more
long to wash His Highness’s feet.
One dawn as I still lie awake,
friends and foes sleeping alike,
smoke billows from above the sky
filling the entire ICU ward.
My breath goes down, as I suffocate
thinking of the children sleeping
in the same wing on warmer beds;
do they deserve such painful death?
I know my time is up, finally
I say my prayer, an extremely long
wait has ended, and I shiver
until the peaceful last cold breath.
I wrote this poem from the perspective of a person who has been lying invalid, probably just on life support for a long time, and wishes death to arrive as she finds her life utterly meaningless. As she hopes and prays for mercy killing, the hospital building catches fire, and her wish is at last fulfilled. However, she dies with a regret that along with her many others are being killed by the dreadful fire, others who did not wish for mercy killing.
A few years ago, a huge fire in a city hospital took many lives, I found the inspiration to write this poem from that devastating news.
© 2011 Rinita Sen
Rinita Sen (author) on March 25, 2020:
Hi Caroline. Thank you for your appreciation. Yes, the incident was really sad and although it happened many years ago, the lives lost could never be forgotten. Happy to see you today. Keep writing.
Caroline Marie on March 24, 2020:
Hello Rinita, this is a beautiful poem. I love the emotion in your words. I can feel myself being in that hospital room. The explanation also gives the poem an even more powerful perspective. What as sad story for a hospital to burn down like that.
Rinita Sen (author) on August 31, 2018:
Thank you, Mona for visiting. Yes, I realize it is a hard decision, and could be misused. In most cases the patient knows themselves but is unable to say, so it is down to the primary caregiver. Thank you again for your insight.
Mona Sabalones Gonzalez from Philippines on August 30, 2018:
I believe in euthanasia, but one never knows, there are so many questions, like when is the right time to do it? Recently someone I know was ready to die and refusing to take an ambulance because he really didn't want to live with tubes all over him and being bedridden for years. With great persuasion he was convinced to go to a hospital. He had pneumonia, which was treatable in five days. So euthansia has to be decided on wisely.
Rinita Sen (author) on September 13, 2012:
Appreciate your insightful comment austinhealy. I realize that it was a bit harsh that other people lost their lives too, but I guess that's how unpredictable situations are in life. You never know who has to pay with what for your wish to come true. Thanks for your visit. Have a great day.
Bernard J. Toulgoat from Treasure Coast, Florida on September 12, 2012:
This is a very serious subject and I must say you treated it very well. I am uneasy with the fact that other people had to die in order for one person to fulfill her wish, it distracts from your original idea, but I am certain that at the very last minute of one's life, we still have some regrets. In any case, a very brave and intelligent poem by my standards
Rinita Sen (author) on August 20, 2012:
Thanks a lot Shruti for your heartfelt comment.
shruti sheshadri from Bangalore, India on August 19, 2012:
Great work :) An unusual poem, The last wishes of the human soul...
nicely portrayed! :)
Rinita Sen (author) on August 18, 2012:
Thanks Hyphenbird. The incident was very sad. Helpless patients couldn't be rescued on time. Anyway, its good to know you liked the thoughts behind the poem.
Brenda Barnes from America-Broken But Still Beautiful on August 18, 2012:
Oh my. I often wonder about people who lie mute and unable to respond. The true story about the hospital fire is awful but you have created something beautiful out of that horror. This line "Arms that can’t hold you any more/ long to wash His Highness’s feet." is gorgeous. I feel that way even now, I long to see Jesus and to honor Him. I love this poem and thank you for it.
Rinita Sen (author) on December 17, 2011:
raciniwa, I know its sad, but it brings a realization with it in the end, and that's what this piece was about. Thanks for visiting. Always appreciated.
raciniwa from Talisay City, Cebu on December 17, 2011:
very, very sad...
Rinita Sen (author) on December 13, 2011:
I know, right? What you wish for often brings waves of unhappiness with it.
Beautiful Garbage from Louisiana on December 13, 2011:
couldnt someone have just "pulled the plug"? be careful what you wish for, they sometimes have consequences that you didnt wish for.
Rinita Sen (author) on December 11, 2011:
Thank you Dee. I am glad you liked it.
Dee42 from Beautiful Arkansas on December 11, 2011:
Very unique and touching. Heart-felt and I was spell bound. Great hub.
Rinita Sen (author) on December 11, 2011:
Thanks for visiting Frank, and for echoing my thoughts.
Frank Atanacio from Shelton on December 11, 2011:
I can feel the words and they chill me to the bone Senoritaa-- I know my time is up, finally.. simple words but properly used they hit just as hard :) thumbs up