Black Consciousness Confront Shadow Poetry Therapy Pt 1
Pt 1
When I was a child my parents divorced
When they were married we lived a country life
When they divorced, all that changed
When they divorced we moved from the country into the city(Columbus, Ga)
We moved to what they call the projects
Growing up we saw a lot of questionable disturbing things
We saw mothers that took up for their children and praising
them when they did something bad
We saw children running around rulelessly throwing rocks at windows
and people
I saw a group of boys throwing rocks at a dog, stoning it to death
I looked in the dog's eyes at its pain and I cried
I said leave it alone
I was confused why the boys had no feelings
We lived upstairs in the apartment complex
Almost every night my brothers', sisters, and I would hear
a boy downstairs crying
He said, “stop, leave me alone”
He cried in agony
What he didn't know is that we cried with him
A man was sneaking into his room at night
We felt his pain and his torture in our hearts
We suffered with him in our soul
the gut-wrenching madness that was happening to him
It happened to him on several different occasions
On one occasion he said momma why are you letting this happen to me
I imagine she turned a blind eye
She was often on the porch during the day bragging about how she has a man
I asked my mother why she doesn't call the police
My mom said she can’t because everyone in the projects will be angry with her and threaten her
My mother was a yellow bone woman so many
of the women did not like her anyway
they had a colorism problem
The police were also very racist back then
This happened 41 years ago
The boy this happened to is now trans
but the most beautiful trans you have ever seen
This boy was created out of some evil circumstances that
happened to him
It was never confronted, that this which happened to him was wrong
No one was there to save him
Cognitive dissonance and numbness took over
and he became a product of an evil legacy that
is still going on till this day
A legacy of a culture that will not confront what is going
on, and on many other levels
But is quick to say we do not talk about this
Or no snitching
but continues to open the doors for perps and let them in
to devour the baby's and genealogies
infect the blood-line making in-turn some victims
becomes perps themselves or a product of abuse
This is killing our culture and progeny to come
and leaves no legacy to the descendants
because of a culture that does not embrace human values
for the very survival of its nation of people in it
To be continued...
Comments
April Seldon (author) from New Orleans on April 12, 2021:
Thank you Jamie Lee.
Jamie Lee Hamann from Reno NV on April 12, 2021:
Thank you for sharing. These are the stories that need to be told. Jamie