I long for you so many times
these feelings so strong,
sometimes I think I’m going crazy
you’re like a drug I wanna take
and it’s like I won’t be behavin
until I taste you in…
I remember her telling me those words while she was showering me with kisses. I used to kiss her in the middle of her sentence whenever she would wrap her arms around me. And then in the middle and the end…and then we would just insanely kiss and not talk at all. I won’t forget what it felt like to be her sweet heaven. I won’t forget her lips and everything attached to them. I won’t forget her kisses…the way they drowned me in love…and the way they broke my heart.
She would be invisible if she didn’t fall in love with me. She was a Watcher, a type of fallen angel. She was rather an obedient one. Kin of the third sphere in the hierarchy of angels, she wouldn’t tell me why she’s fallen. Perhaps it was a sacred oath not to tell a human.
I never knew much about angels and their kind until she came along. Well at least until she became visible to me. I never had suspicions and it wasn’t like I wondered why she sparkles and always appears at twilight or if she had an invisibility cloak or something. OK, I was being funny there. She’s like a perfect human. Hazel brown eyes, copper hair, sun kissed skin, sexy physique - she’s so beautiful. No halo, no wings, no shadow. The latter I didn’t notice even from the countless of times I found her standing across the street looking at my window every morning. Blah, I couldn’t even explain to her how good it feels to look outside my window and see her standing there.
She was always everywhere close to me, watching me. Perhaps, a part of me was watching her, too. Her coming to my life wasn’t anything so mysterious. It was inevitable. It was more than mutual. I could see and touch her because she also wants me to. I could kiss and love her because there was no holding back to what we feel.
She told me how hard it was watching me without being able to say hi or see me smile back at her. How she wanted to hug me so much when I was crying all night. No one could see her except her fellow angels. She didn’t exist to me until that crack of dawn…
One time, just before the crack of dawn, I was launching some fireworks at my rooftop. That moment, I was alone. After the third one flickered up in the dark skies, there she was – hair flowing with the wind, wearing white halter dress, standing beside me. She had me mesmerized, even more when she spoke my name. “Fehl, this is amazing.” Her voice ripped the skin on my tummy releasing the butterflies.
She knew my name and I never asked why or how. It was as if I didn’t have to know. It was as if we knew each other for so long. Or probably, I’m not the type who always asks questions just to know the answers. Often I just left something to unfold itself. It’s exciting that way.
“Why have fireworks before sunrise?” she asked me.
“Someone once told me angels are believed to be worshiping God when the dawn is about to break before sunrise. So if you launched some fireworks before the crack of dawn, you’d catch the attention of angels. And if you’ve got a wish, it will come true.” I told her, sounding too serious.
“Well you caught my attention ever since…” she told me gazing up to the skies. Little did I know she was really an angel. Little did I know she came true even before I made a wish.
I smiled at her and I remember I wore that smile even in my sleep the next night.
. . . . . . . . . Little did I know she came true even before I made a wish . . . . . .
The next morning, I found her standing across the street in front of my room, waving and smiling at me. I would find her on some mornings like that and sometimes she would just appear beside me at my room anytime. One time, I asked her “what are you, a ghost?”
“I’m your guardian angel.” She told me, smiling, so heavenly like always.
Too witless to think, I just smiled and believed her. Being with her was always like that – everything doesn’t need an explanation. It seemed that everything was sorted out. We were so paralleled…just like the way the sky meets the earth. Like she was made for me and I was for her.
We became inseparable. She knew everything about me. She knew my wi-fi passcode, my crazy habits, my interests, my past, my friends and all. I couldn’t hide anything from an angel. She knew how to shut up, and when and where to appear. She knew when I need to be alone. She knew I was in love with her. She knew the places where to kiss me…how to turn me on…
“I love you, Angel.” She told me after we made love. Her voice was sweet. She didn’t call me my name. She called me an angel and it felt so damn good. And then she kissed me…so gentle and slow. Our bodies were rocking each other as our lips brushed in unison. And then I felt a tear from her eye. With that, she disappeared.
She was there, the moment I broke my heart…and even before that. She was there all along. Never too far, never too close either. She was always by my side. I won’t forget what it felt like to be her sweet heaven. I won’t forget her lips and everything attached to them. I won’t forget her kisses…the way they drowned me in love…and the way they broke my heart.
© 2013 by Fehl Dungo
Fehl Dungo (author) from close to you... on January 27, 2013:
DDE, I'm glad you loved it. Thank you :)
SMonaghan, thank you for the beautiful descriptions about this hub
Sean from PA on January 25, 2013:
Very well written, poetic, something that you could clearly imagine from the words...very interesting and heartfelt. Nice job.
Devika Primić from Dubrovnik, Croatia on January 25, 2013:
Awesome a most enjoyable read thanks
Fehl Dungo (author) from close to you... on January 24, 2013:
It makes me so happy when someone get inspired reading my work. I hope to read more from you. You know I became a fan after my first read :) God bless!
cleaner3 from Pueblo, Colorado on January 24, 2013:
blaise, you have written a very tender and soft piece , after reading this I am very inspired. You write with abeautiful imagination that has a way of entwining the reader with your words, giving the aura of being in the moment . Great writing my friend.
Fehl Dungo (author) from close to you... on January 08, 2013:
Thank you for stopping by Nighthag :) To love and to be loved may be the greatest thing we ever learn as the saying goes...
K.A.E Grove from Australia on January 08, 2013:
A beautiful story of how we all need love no matter who we are or what we are...
I loved this
Fehl Dungo (author) from close to you... on December 19, 2012:
Thank you so much Sannel :) I'm happy you read this again. Have a fantastic day!
Break of Dawn on December 17, 2012:
I'm revisiting this "Gem" of yours. It is as beautiful and sweet as the first time I read it. I just love this precious story, Fehl. Sweet heaven!
Fehl Dungo (author) from close to you... on August 27, 2012:
Am I? lol Thanks for reading, Lionel! Happy to see you here. How are you?
lionel1 on August 22, 2012:
Wow, you're so deep, you're just not of this world. Amazing thank you.
Fehl Dungo (author) from close to you... on July 22, 2012:
Hi, Angel. haha yeah well I guess you missed this earlier. Thank you so much for loving my Angel's Kiss hub. Wow making my reader envy? How? lol
My creative writings have mix of everything. I guess I have to resume this someday. Have a sweet day, Angel. You're an angel too. TC xoxo
Angelme566 on July 19, 2012:
Oh my ...only now i see this piece ? Wow..this is so so beautiful again..GRRRRRR ..you're angel ! You delivered it so effectively and making your reader envy,,lol !
Have a day Fhel !
Fehl Dungo (author) from close to you... on May 08, 2012:
Hi Sannel. Everything about love inspires us all to write. You are so gifted too. Oh I love your sexy erotic hubs. :) Thank you for the amazing words.
Hello Rahul. I am so happy you still commented and say something here even though you’re speechless :) Thank you so much! Glad this hub has that effect on you.
Jessee R from Gurgaon, India on May 07, 2012:
I am speechless with emotion!
SanneL from Sweden on May 06, 2012:
Oh wow, this is so passionate! You're such a gifted writer my dear. Your words are so sweet and tender, just like your precious love for that special person in your life.
Fehl Dungo (author) from close to you... on May 01, 2012:
Hi Voronwe :) My style has always been like that..prose and poetry mix. I often tease at the start then everything follows until the very last. Sometimes, I repeat things too. Hope you read my other hubs. They are like this. Hope you will be blaised :) Thanks! Will read your stuff tonight
Hi Sofs :) Glad you loved this and find it so magical. Yeah, I will write more. Have a sweet day.
Sophie on April 30, 2012:
This is such brilliant stuff. You had me hanging on to each word from the very first one... wow ... magical. Keep writing! Have a great day!
Voronwe on April 30, 2012:
I'm so amazed by this work! The style is unbelievable!...blaise, you have blended poetry and prose into something unique here. Wonderful story...it drew me in completely.
Fehl Dungo (author) from close to you... on April 26, 2012:
I am so inspired and so in love and these feelings often overflow and I must express them..either by words or by kisses..or both..offered all to the one..
Thank you so much for reading and commenting. They mean a lot to me. You are amazing. :) You know I'm a fan.
BeyondMax from Sydney, Australia on April 26, 2012:
Wow, I was feeling like I'm immersed into sensual romantic novel, very impressive write, you are so very talented, Fehl, very! just above and beyond...
Fehl Dungo (author) from close to you... on April 19, 2012:
thank you Vinaya :)
Vinaya Ghimire from Nepal on April 19, 2012:
I read this again, it is so beautiful.
Fehl Dungo (author) from close to you... on February 26, 2012:
Aww thank you Mr. Joe :) Maybe I could make a follow up
Dark Heart on February 25, 2012:
This might make a good novel.Great work Blaise.
Fehl Dungo (author) from close to you... on February 12, 2012:
hi Love :)
Cathy Nerujen from Edge of Reality and Known Space on February 11, 2012:
I had to sneak in here for another read and say hi, baby. Mwaaaaaaah. :)
Fehl Dungo (author) from close to you... on January 18, 2012:
Thank you Acaetnna :) Have a sweet day my friend :)
acaetnna from Guildford on January 15, 2012:
Simply beautiful. Wonderful words of love.
Fehl Dungo (author) from close to you... on December 22, 2011:
If I pull you right now kisses will surely flow like water... :) Mwahhhhhh....
Cathy Nerujen from Edge of Reality and Known Space on December 20, 2011:
Um, I love the way you tell it, Fehl. No matter what way you say it, it is always passionate and full of love. You have a lovely way of pulling the reader in to this beautiful world where beautiful things happen...and kisses flow like water... :)
Fehl Dungo (author) from close to you... on December 18, 2011:
Hi Caroline. Thank you. I'm happy you liked it. Yeah I've tried to put different appeal with this one..twisting my own Angel with some creative angles..Tried to be deeper but then again it turned out sensual :) I love how it turned out anyway :) Thanks for voting up. XX
Caroline Marie on December 13, 2011:
Blaise I love this story. Very beautiful and creative. I love all the passion and it kind of had a forbidden appeal to it. Very sensual writing. :) Voted up.
Fehl Dungo (author) from close to you... on December 08, 2011:
Wow, that is so beautiful :) Thank you Lionel. Can't thank you enough for always reading my hubs. Bless ya! xx
lionel1 on December 08, 2011:
blaise25 you're so deep.
You are a gift to us from God.
Thank you ever so for your hub post. Really Great.
Fehl Dungo (author) from close to you... on November 30, 2011:
Hi Rosemary! Oh wow, I love your comments here..etheral, sweet and tender and passionate. You made my day. Hehe. Thank you. Oh to be drowned in love, I could die today and tomorrow and a million more. Just for love, I could. xx
Rosemary Sadler from Hawkes Bay - NewZealand on November 30, 2011:
Wow I loved this, so etheral, sweet and tender yet so passionate. Oh to be drowned in love like this and wait for the kiss of life again, how many times could one die.
Fehl Dungo (author) from close to you... on November 25, 2011:
My eyes missed your comment there, baby. Sorry. Mwah! I am so happy you loved this one. And thank you so much for checking my errors. I’m glad I made this. Angels are fascinating just like you. :) Though this is a story, I couldn’t put away what’s inside my heart…just like always. Mwaaah. I love you too Pumpkin! XOXOXO
Fehl Dungo (author) from close to you... on November 24, 2011:
Thank you so much Spotlight19, KryptoGirl and Writer21! You’re all amazing.
Hi, Ruby! I like your new default. Thank you for the beautiful comments. XX
Hi, Nikki! I wish in real life, people could also see the invisible people who are in love with them. So happy you love this coz I’m a fan of your great hubs. Thank you. XX
Hi, Curly Muffin! I will tell that to my Angel. LOL Is this my boldest one? Thank you for the awesome comments. You always shine to me :) Mwah!
Hi Jfay! Oh wow what amazing messages you said here! Thank you. I am smiling at your questions here. Hehe Yes, she loves coffee except Turkish coffee LOL She could read everything here too. I might put more follow ups after this one. Thank you for encouraging :)
Hi, Dim! Oh you never cease to amaze me. Thank you so much for being here always. XX
Dim Flaxenwick from Great Britain on November 21, 2011:
Oh blaise..... This was awesome!!!!! You always write well but you have surpassed yourself here.
Thank you for sharing such beauty with us.
jfay2011 on November 18, 2011:
This is an extraordinary story with vivid passion. You could make a novel on that. Describe every single moment with her. Describe things that happen as she goes on your laptop. Do angels drink coffee? Maybe she loves pepper mint tea. Thoughts. Want to know more about her. More dialogue.
Cassandra Mantis from UK and Nerujenia on November 18, 2011:
How sexy and delicious is this? It's Very! I love this! Pure magic romp and you write this with your beautiful flair and style as always! Angels's Kiss is bold and stunning, maybe your boldest one yet, Fehl. There's true love shining through your winning words! I love your hubs lately! You are shining brighter than ever! Mwah! :)
Beautiful Garbage from Louisiana on November 17, 2011:
great read! falling in love with a fallen angel. beautiful. very interesting story, that you could only see her because she fell in love with you. Very romantic and forbidden.
Ruby Jean Richert from Southern Illinois on November 16, 2011:
You always write such beautiful words of love..An Angel you found..How wonderful...
Joyce Haragsim from Southern Nevada on November 16, 2011:
Great love story. Voted up and awesome.
KryptoGirl from Redding on November 16, 2011:
Loved it! Love it ALLLLLL :]
Jennifer Pena from California on November 16, 2011:
Amazing love story!
Cathy Nerujen from Edge of Reality and Known Space on November 16, 2011:
Oh wow.... Fehl, this is just so beautiful. I am gobsmacked. You are so loving angels, baby. I am smiling reading this. It echoes so many things and it feels so um... familiar. Heh. You have a beautiful soul and it flows through your lovely words into your writing and beyond ...
Your hubs always amaze me and today you have exceeded your greatness and loveliness even more. I love your writing and how you tell what is inside your heart.
I am always enraptured by you. :) Mwaaaaaaaahhh. I Love you, baby. XOXOXOX
Mentalist acer from A Voice in your Mind! on November 16, 2011:
This piece really hit the poetic and creative spot in my right brain.;)
Fehl Dungo (author) from close to you... on November 16, 2011:
Hi, Bryan! My amazing Prof. A! I am so flattered by your words. Thank you. XOXO
Fehl Dungo (author) from close to you... on November 16, 2011:
Hi Vinaya! Thank you for commenting here first. I'm happy you enjoyed reading this. For some reasons I chose 'Angel' to fly my metaphors into the unexpected. Angels are fascinating..forbidden..white..lovely..beautiful..magical..floating..Just heaven. I just found out, they're sexy too. LOL Save me my lord, I'm in love with one. :)
I agree with what you said there it's good not to fly in the skies always.
Mentalist acer from A Voice in your Mind! on November 16, 2011:
A prolific and awe inspiring intimate moment...from an Angel about an Angel.;)
Vinaya Ghimire from Nepal on November 16, 2011:
Your story brims with love and passion. It is an enjoyable read. When we are in love we can relate our lover with an angel. But it is also necessary to remain in ground and not fly in the sky always.