H.C Porter aka Holly writes prose poetry. She writes about her life experiences as a way to heal and help others that can relate.
More than the shades of dust and gray
Shades of Dust and Gray
The tears flow from the eyes of depression.
A deep red purple stains the ground.
The world becomes dark and heart becomes cold,
She tries to find a light in the darkness, but she only sees her shadow.
She remembers when she stood in the light and tries to recall when she fell,
But she can’t.
She is exhausted by her thoughts and has lost any will to figure them out.
Her sadness floats around like a lost drifting soul.
Misery is her companion, one which has no need to speak.
She no longer sees color,
No longer hears laughter.
She no longer tries to feel anyone or anything.
The tears are empty now-the world is a tranquilizing calm.
Nobody sees what she holds in her mind.
Nobody sees her curled up in the corner.
Nobody heard her cry.
Nobody heard her beg.
Nobody noticed when she stopped showing up, or checking in or following through.
What sadness it is to lose a life, it is so personal when it is your own.
She no longer wants the answers to the questions she once asked.
She no longer believes in hope or in dreams.
She sits alone now in her eternal hell, never knowing, never realizing that the world is more than the shades of dust and gray.
I see her sitting, as tears flow and deep red purple stains the ground.
I helped her up from the corner.
I now know what she held in her mind.
Hold out my hand, hear her cry, feel her sadness in my soul.
She no longer needs misery-I will help her speak.
Please don’t cry those empty tears.
I want to help you see.
The world is a wind storm, of more than shades of dust and gray.
There is light on the darkest of days.
Take my hand I will walk with you until you are able to find your own way.
She no longer sits alone in an eternal hell.
She sees color in the deepest shades of dust and gray.
She feels her thoughts and sees her dreams,
and I can hear her speak.
Hear her speak
More Poetry From HC Porter
- A Poem- I Gave My Belief to a Habit
HC Porter on HubPages writes about life and letting go of addiction. Addiction takes so much of who we are, that at times we struggle to regain our step to break our belief in a habit
- The Rain Drips from Her Fingertips
Online Poetry by H.C Porter. Women and survival seem to go hand in hand for many. It does not have to be this way, realizing you can walk away before you lose yourself to domestic abuse is the first step getting your life back.
Holly (author) from Lone Star State on April 24, 2012:
cherriquinn, thank you. I am glad that this poem spoke to you. This one, along with As the rain drips from her fingertips and Tears dont come from heaven are three that are apart of my soul...so I truly appreciate the feedback when it is left.
cherriquinn from UK. England. Newcastle upon Tyne on April 20, 2012:
This poem spoke volumes to me. It was simply empathy brought alive through words. I look forward to reading other poems and material you have written. Thankyou.
Holly (author) from Lone Star State on February 27, 2012:
CJ Sledgehammer- No need to be humbled by me... I just write... nothing more, nothing less... just words on a page. I do appreciate your comment and your support, and am glad you liked what you read. :)
CJ Sledgehammer on February 24, 2012:
Wow, H.C., that was some heavy stuff, well done! I have been playing around with poetry a little, but I must admit, I am humbled in your presence.
Best wishes and be well - C.J. Sledgehammer
Holly (author) from Lone Star State on November 04, 2011:
Brandon E Newman- I am assuming this is a bad thing? Or is it a good thing for me being that my poem drew out such raw emotions? Your Depressed- I'm Confused... Let us each write... :) Thanks for reading :) Hopefully you are not depressed and life is good.
Brandon E Newman from North Texas on November 04, 2011:
I am depressed.......
Holly (author) from Lone Star State on March 02, 2011:
Thank you for reading and commenting on this one. This poem was started when I was a teenager-and then edited and reworded for years until it became true to who I was. Maybe that is why it is so dear to me, and means a lot when someone takes the time to read it and comment...
PR Morgan from Sarasota Florida on March 01, 2011:
I love how this poem brings you down and back up again...very nice! A poem of humanity...
Holly (author) from Lone Star State on January 11, 2011:
Thanks for the comment... and for the appraisal- I appreciate your feedback. I would be honored to give you feed back on your writing.
QuirkyNerd from England on January 09, 2011:
Wow, you're a great writer, i am also into literature, ive written the first chapter to my story. please read and tell me if its any good. i'd be honoured to recieve feedback from you.
Holly (author) from Lone Star State on December 14, 2010:
Starflakes- thank you for your comment, I greatly appreciate the feedback & am glad you enjoyed the poem.
starflakes from Florida on December 13, 2010:
beautiful ode to life
Holly (author) from Lone Star State on December 05, 2010:
Pennyofheaven, thanks for your comment- I am glad you enjoyed the read & left a comment- I appreciate you taking your time to give some feedback...
pennyofheaven from New Zealand on December 05, 2010:
Very profound, beautiful poem thank you!
Holly (author) from Lone Star State on October 31, 2010:
nighthag- Thanks for the comment. This is one of those poems that I am glad that it came out this way. It represents a very hard time in my life-that took a struggle to get past.
K.A.E Grove from Australia on October 29, 2010:
A beautiful dark poem that highlights the hopelessness of depression, and the need to extend a helpful hand..
Touching and inspiring..
Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 29, 2010:
rossimobis, thanks for the encouraging comment. I hope that more people see the inspiration in this poem; it is one of my personal favorites amongst my writings. Thanks for taking the time to read it and give me the feedback
Chibuzo Melvin Mobis from Nigeria on July 28, 2010:
"There is light on the darkest of days" This is highly inspiring and one thing about humanity.
Awesome and voted up!
Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 27, 2010:
Thanks so much for the comment. Depression is hard to write about with an accurate description to what it truly feels like to experience. I was lost in my mind for so long and felt like the hope that was out in the world was not meant for me-this poem reflects that-and it reflects the struggle to rise above it and pull myself out of my mind and into reality before I was lost to the depression. Thanks again for your perception-I really appreciate the feedback
KFlippin from Amazon on July 26, 2010:
Really a great, moving poem, you validate the darkness of depression that not many understand, and you convey its misery so very well. Was glad to read the uplifting, light-filled close.
Holly (author) from Lone Star State on July 15, 2010:
notquitecorso, Thank you- I am glad that you found this one- I haven’t had as many views on this particular poem as I have on others-but it is one that I am glad I wrote and is an expression of what I was feeling during a time of change and new found understanding and acceptance of depression. So thank you so much for your encouragement and compliments-they mean a great deal to me :)
notquitecorso from Portland, Oregon on July 14, 2010:
H.C. Glad you posted a link in your bio to some of your favorites...WHAT A LAST LINE!...almost sneaks up on you with hidden energy...I read the poem twice in a row just to fully absorb...thank you.
Holly (author) from Lone Star State on June 17, 2010:
Thanks for reading and commenting on another hub. I am glad that you enjoyed the read :)
kaltopsyd from Trinidad originally, but now in the USA on June 15, 2010:
What a beautifully sad poem. Wow... that was quite a contradicting statement wasn't it? Sorry about that. Great poem nevertheless.
Holly (author) from Lone Star State on June 08, 2010:
hello again steviem, thanks again for reading and commenting. currently I do not have any books out-but I am working on 2. One is a collection of my poetry and the other is a poem which I actually have on Hub Pages as well called Did you shine today-A Child's Poem, which is going to be a children's book (once the graphics are completed)
steviem on June 08, 2010:
Another brilliant poem,I love your work,have you any books published?
Holly (author) from Lone Star State on June 03, 2010:
Thank you for choosing this hub to read and comment on-this is one of my most daring/personal poems and I was scared to death to publish it when I did. I am glad that you saw the truth in my writing-although I am not glad that you have felt that desperate numbness which i descrided. I truly appreciate your feedback :)
Tony McGregor from South Africa on June 03, 2010:
"She no longer wants the answers to the questions she once asked." I found this a powerful image of the depth of depression. I have been there too and know what a hell it is no longer to want the answers. That is possibly the deepest pit one can find oneself in - when even the desire to make sense of the nonsense has gone.
Powerful poem. Thanks for sharing.
Love and peace
Holly (author) from Lone Star State on May 13, 2010:
Thank you so much Lorie, I am very appreciative of you taking the time to read and comment on this poem. Even though it hasnt seen a lot of views-it is probably one of my most personal and favorite pieces I have written. Thank you again for your encouragement :)
Laurel Rogers from Bishop, Ca on May 13, 2010:
In introducing your friend Chrystal to HubPages, you've shown us what a lovely character you have. Despite the paralyzing depression that I also know, you are a powerful poet.
Holly (author) from Lone Star State on April 01, 2010:
Thanks Sage for rating this one up. Out of all of my work I have posted here, this is one of the ones that is extremely personal to me. To hear that you were able to relate to the words and know the desperation behind the depression-reassures me that I wrote my experience with accuracy. Thanks for stopping by and taking the time to read and comment on such a personal piece of my writing
Sage Williams on April 01, 2010:
Your poem took me back to the many years that I lived with depression. Powerfully poignant. I cannot pick out just one line cause they were all so very true. I could feel and recall each and every word as if I had written it myself.
I was breezing through some of the comments and noticed what you had written back to rawlus. With tremendous insight you wrote.....
"When we become comfortable enough with our past, to let it go, we in return become stronger in our present and for our futures." How profoundly true and don't second guess yourself it makes perfect sense.
This poem will touch the lives of so many people.
Great Job, Rated Up!
Holly (author) from Lone Star State on April 01, 2010:
Thanks for reading and that was quite a lovely poem as well-Thanks for sharing it with me. :)
Winsome from Southern California by way of Texas on April 01, 2010:
No one sees
No one hears
No one notices she's not even there
No one loves
No one cares
No one hurts because no one even dares
Except the one who shares the pain
Except the one who knows your name
Except the one who took the blame
The one who takes your hand
And leads you home
Lovely poem HC
Holly (author) from Lone Star State on January 26, 2010:
Thanks Nadiaazhar- I am glad you enjoy this one, it is probably one of my favorite pieces i have placed here on hubpages.
nadiaazhar from kuwait on January 26, 2010:
i'm giving a second read and honestly its worth it!
nikki1 on January 08, 2010:
wow, what a poem. A little sad.
Holly (author) from Lone Star State on January 08, 2010:
Nadia & Madison
Thank you both for reading and commenting on this one. I have a handful of hubs that are much more personal than the others, this one being one of them- so I am glad that some people can read and feel what I was intending to portray in the words. I am grateful it was liked by both of you :)
Madison from NYC on January 08, 2010:
Extraordinary! from darkness to light. Every line is intense. Very nice:)
nadiaazhar from kuwait on January 08, 2010:
you have amazingly written about the emptiness within one's soul after a great loss and you have ended it so beautifully by focusing on the ray of hope,the reason to move on in life with positivity.i really love it.
Holly (author) from Lone Star State on January 05, 2010:
Thanks for your comment-and compliment. This was one of those times that I just wrote-what I felt, paid no attention to what I was actually writing, and didnt try to write it to where it made sense to anyone but me-that tends to be when I am able to write my best.
Thanks for reading-I really appreciate all your comments, and compliments. You are always so encouraging!
Ken R. Abell from ON THE ROAD on January 05, 2010:
WOW. Powerful imagery & emotionally engaging. Thanks for sharing from your heart/gut. Good stuff.
Cassandra Mantis from UK and Nerujenia on January 05, 2010:
This hub stirred my soul. I was very moved by these words. There is that sense of loss and emptiness and wanting to fill it and be there for someone special. I love the way you describe things. You have a way with words. : )
Holly (author) from Lone Star State on January 04, 2010:
Thanks. I am glad you took the time to read and comment. Specially on that line. Poetry is usually a little tougher to get feed back on.
It is amazing what we can get through in our lives, even though our memories dont let us forget. What a lot of people tend to not realize is, who we once were-has everything to do with who we are now. When we become comfortable enough with our past, to let it go, we in return become stronger in our present and for our futures (if that makes any sense at all)
Again, thanks for commenting on my hub!
ralwus on January 04, 2010:
Oh wow! How powerful. You are an excellent writer. I like how you repeated dust and gray as an image of her/your former life?