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Losing an Angel Inside Me

Arvella is a freelance writer, a researcher and a consultant. She works with adolescents, marriage couples and people with special needs.

Today, marked the moment of fear and being weak....
Nervous, anxious, and totally hopeless at this time...
I just don't know what to do, help is what I seek..
I can't help it, worst thing is that you can't be mine...

I have learned to tame my tongue in front of them...
I have learned to just listen and go with what is best...
But they don't even know, I was hurt by them,
Baby, I can't do this... but I need to stop life and rest...


I'm bad, I'm not that good, I'm weak and truly not so strong for you...
I know, I gonna make a bad decision between you and me...
I can't give you the life everyone's hoping for...
Giving up on you is my last resort,
I'm starting to tearing you into pieces...


Forbidden love, I have learned to be selfless, and broaden my horizon...
I have learned to understand you more and I have learned to let you go..

BUT all of the sudden....

I became so sick, unaccepted, and selfish to this little human inside me..
I am sorry, for this is what I thought to be a better decision for you and me
At this moment, feel the feelings, listen to my heart,
Someday, you may understand me as you see me around...

Tomorrow, you will feel some pain, intensely..
It's so painful to tear you apart..
I am so sorry, I do hope you do understand...

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No matter what happened, you have felt the feelings I have right now..
I will let you go, my dearest.. I need to do it..
No matter what, you'll still be here in my heart forever....

The end of everything started from the unknown personality...

He was threatened by vicious devilish intentions

As caused by a kind of an obsessive love....

No longer live, blood starting to flow,

I'm crying out loud inside me, I have lost an angel..

Please forgive me....

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