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What Is It Like to Experience Hallucinations?

I am an amateur writer aiming to break stigma and generate more understanding and informative content about mental health.

If you are experiencing symptoms such as seeing or hearing things that are not there and you don't know why or you or somebody you know is struggling with addiction, please reach out to a medical professional immediately.

Always ask your doctor first before starting, stopping or altering medication and if you ever feel unsafe or if you are concerned about overdose or somebody you know may be experiencing an overdose, call poison control and go to your local hospital emergency room immediately.

What Is It Like To Hallucinate?

I've experienced medication induced hallucinations a few times in my life. I don't really like it. It freaks me out and makes me feel like I'm being watched, and I don't like that. I wanted to document what I experienced on three separate occasions because I have had people who were very interested in these stories.

Medication Induced Hallucinations

One of the side effects for me of the new medication that I started taking was that I experienced hallucinations at night time when I was supposed to be asleep. These were where I would wake up suddenly and right Infront of my face I would see a weird shape like colorful shapes moving slowly and forming into other shapes. I'd lay there looking at them really confused about what was Infront of my face.

So then I would touch them, and they would react to my touch.

Other times I'd just close my eyes and they'd go away. But sometimes it would be more unsettling because a couple times I've seen faces right Infront of me. They were like holographic faces. Very vivid. I hate it.

They scared me and I was afraid to sleep back then but after I got used to the meds I stopped having those hallucinations.

The First Time I Hallucinated

I didn't know that I was hallucinating. This story is a bit of a trigger warning because it involves a hospital setting.

I was laying in bed in the Emergency room after I had a psychiatric episode, I was just talking to my grandma in the bed and then I started to see a pink and purple really pretty blob form right above my face. It was like pastel colours. I just stared at it wondering what it was. I knew my eyes were playing tricks then it occurred to me to try and touch it because it looked very real. I touched it and it reached to my hand. I moved my hand through it and it formed around my hand. It just moved around my hand and my wrist and it had colorful pastel colored dust coming off it. It was very pretty and aesthetic. I asked my grandma if she sees that too? She said no. Then all I remember is suddenly being told I just had a seizure. I didn't believe that because no time went past, I was just playing with the pretty blob in the air and then suddenly I had a nurse over me telling me I fell off the bed and had a seizure. I looked over at my arm and I suddenly had an IV in my arm that I didn't have milliseconds ago. I can't remember if it was before or after my seizure, I think it was after, but I looked above my head and beside my bed there was a face. It had no body or anything just a face staring into the void. I remember not thinking anything of it. (This is why I think it was after seizure) because I thought it was just a nurse watching me from the door. It took me a while to realize that there was not even a door there and that face was literally just a face, and it wouldn't make sense for it to be a nurse because it was just a face and there was no door on the ceiling.

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I Took a Random Blue Pill To Fall Asleep

I was staying at my dad's place and suffering from really bad insomnia. He had a bottle of small blue pills on the floor and when I searched on the web what they are, I found that they were pharmacy grade sleeping medication. So, I took one and tried to fall asleep.

I was all good until about 30 mins later when I started seeing lines and squiggles you know, nothing weird just looked like when your eyes play tricks in the dark.

Well, they started to move closer to me and it looked kind of like smoke but like lines and grid pattern. Almost like those holographic grid patterns.

It was getting unsettlingly close to me, so I put my hand out and touched it. It reacted to my touch, it kind of floated around my hand and started coating my hand. I moved my hand away and looked at my hand and my hand looked like it was coated in some weird smoke liquid clear thing.

I looked over ahead of me and I could see shapes forming and they were moving closer to me. It wasn't scary just unsettling because it's weird. But then a face started to form across the room, and it started slowly floating toward me and forming more and more realistic.

I got freaked out and turned the light on and everything was gone. I went and got my cat, and she stayed in my room with me for the night.

As Cool As It Sounds...

None of these were pleasant experiences to me. They make look aesthetically pleasing to the eye but it's frightening because of the fact that it's unnatural and you know that you shouldn't be seeing what you're seeing.

For me, I really value my solitude, I like being by myself and not worrying about what other people think of me or if somebody (or something) is going to harm me. When I hallucinate, I get this feeling that I am being analyzed by something supernatural that's out of my control and I'm danger. Especially when my visions come closer to me or interact with my limbs.

The knowing of it being part of my mind actually makes it worse because I know that the mind can do things that we can't even fathom so I am scared that the pleasant sight I am seeing one moment will turn into something horrifying and traumatic without warning.

If the mind can conjure up such vivid images that react to touch, then anything is possible and that scares me.

If you are experiencing symptoms such as seeing or hearing things that are not there and you don't know why or you or somebody you know is struggling with addiction, please reach out to a medical professional immediately.

Always ask your doctor first before starting, stopping or altering medication and if you ever feel unsafe or if you are concerned about overdose or somebody you know may be experiencing an overdose, call poison control and go to your local hospital emergency room immediately.

This content is accurate and true to the best of the author’s knowledge and does not substitute for diagnosis, prognosis, treatment, prescription, and/or dietary advice from a licensed health professional. Drugs, supplements, and natural remedies may have dangerous side effects. If pregnant or nursing, consult with a qualified provider on an individual basis. Seek immediate help if you are experiencing a medical emergency.

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