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My Experience with Mental Health

The Beginning

Let's start from the beginning, which is the last semester when I was in College, and just being completely checked out, and wanting to be done with the program I was in and graduate and move on. It was kind of at that point, I noticed that my mood would change so fast, with no real explanation for it. The problem is, I never wanted to admit it back then that I might have anxiety/depression because at that time, to me, it seemed like a weakness. I know now , it is not.

The Months After Graduation

The career never took off as I imagined, and still has not, and as time passed, and the months passed, things became progressively worse for me mentally, because I had put all my eggs into the career basket, and had set a specific goal. Once it did not work, everything began to unravel.

The Doctors and Medication

It quickly became clear to the people around me that I should probably see a doctor, and find out what exactly was causing the sudden mood swings, and the consistent low mood. For me personally, a big moment was talking to a psychologist for the first time and just letting out everything that was inside of me, and realizing how much the career affects me, and how much is impacts me mood, and it impacts me very directly, and its very noticeable. I tried the medication thing, and it is simply not for me, I believe there are other ways of getting myself to a better place.


Pushing Through

The idea of trying to stay strong and push through the darkness is something that is definitely easier said than done, at least for me. I find myself constantly thinking about the career, and its something I can't turn off, it is always there and always affects me. For me, the mental health stuff is a constant, and very real struggle.

Trying New Things

I am now at the point of wanting to really try different things, and explore, and find ways to make myself feel better and get to a place where I am no longer constrained by certain things. This entire 8 year experience has been rough, but has also taught me a lot about myself, and learning how to survive when things get tough. I am in the process of trying some relaxing oils to help me relax and also in the process of talking to a psychiatrist to help deal with certain things bothering me. I know mental health is not the easiest thing to deal with, but I also know I can overcome everything and succeed, as anyone else can too.

This content is accurate and true to the best of the author’s knowledge and is not meant to substitute for formal and individualized advice from a qualified professional.

© 2020 Jordan Weaver

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