Jakayla obtained her MSW degree from the University of Central Florida. Jakayla is a realist with wings.
At this point you may be thinking, "ok but what if real life is happening to me and people do not treat me right, or my family is struggling financially, or my world was turned upside down?" The truth is the same concept applies to any situation. The same God that I know, is your God too, even if you don’t believe it yet. I will tell you a secret, He believes in you even when you don’t believe in Him. Unbelief can be more than just not believing God exists. Unbelief can be exactly who I was, not believing that God loves you, or that you can be yourself, or that you matter and have purpose, or that your family will not continue to live in poverty, or that the best that life has to offer is already yours.
We have all been in a place of unbelief before, because we are called humans :). It is ok and totally normal if you visit there from time to time, just don’t stay long or live there. The truth is even when you do, that does not stop God from being Himself. He loves to be himself and doing that means he will love you, deliver you, heal you, restore you, and do it for your family too! He is going to do it anyway because it is who He is, but it really makes things easier for him when we believe he will.
Sometimes I create God sized dreams, and fear was on my neck like “girl you can not ask for that because what if you don’t get it and then the opposite happens instead then you’ll be sad and lonely”. But in time, I began to read things back to myself. When I did, I did not hear my own thoughts or read my own words. I heard the voice of God The Father, and it was powerful and it moved me.
"Oh, the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God! how unsearchable his judgements, and his paths beyond tracing out!"
— Romans 11:33
I had no choice but to accept that there was a Holy Spirit that dwelled on the inside of me and that it loved me, in real life. I had no choice but to face that truth because I was looking at it in my face. At this point I knew rejecting myself would be rejecting the God in me and that is not nice. I really enjoy being nice :). The truth was in me and it was time to stop denying it and Live in it, for real this time.
So I made a decision that no matter what anyone said, no matter what I heard in teachings or even what my own thoughts would tell me about what the Lord was saying, I wanted to trust that same Spirit that revealed the real Truth to my face and my heart. I had to because if I didn’t I would continue believing the lies that came to my head or from others about who I was and my circumstances.
I had to trust no one but ‘my Higher Self’ (or Holy Spirit). My lower self (or lying spirit) had been lying to me for like 20 years and I believed it and it got me into some weird places. It was time to try a new thing. And as it turns out, that new thing is the real tea child, the real thing itself.
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