“The road to creativity passes so close to the madhouse and often detours or ends there.” - Ernest Becker-
Forms of psychosis.
Psychosis is a mental disorder with symptomatic behavior such as hallucination, delusions, and uncoordinated attitude. It is a very critical condition that occurs episodically, and it could be brought about by a variety of reasons. These triggers could range from a brief psychotic disorder or substance abuse to much more vicious conditions such as schizophrenia and schizoaffective disorder, there are three phases in which psychosis takes place, the prodromal phase in which a person starts to experience changes in perspective and feelings, yet without psychotic features such as hallucinations and delusions, and the acute phase which the psychotic symptoms commence to kick in, and the recovery which might take weeks or months. In this article, I intend to give you an insight into how psychosis can affect a person and its consequential aftermath.
How does it feel?
It usually starts by the person getting a sense of unease, the feeling of a strange weight pulling you down, like fear is drowning you, which then turns into paranoia, suspiciousness, mistrust, and encountering an out-of-world experience, which is the phase of detachment and derealisation. You might be confronted by a feeling of dread and fear. paranoia and delusions might take place, by which I mean you start thinking of others' motives disparately and having never-ending intrusive thoughts that people have bad intentions toward you. You might feel that you are not good enough at anything, or that you have done something terrible and you don’t know what it is. Once realization starts to come into effect, you feel so lost that you perceive the world differently, in a way you never felt before, you might start seeing things in a way you haven’t seen before, shadows might drift around your peripheral vision, shapes might distort and colors change, strange figures appear, even taste and smell become different in a way that is hard to express, you might get a constant unpleasant taste in your mouth, you can barely identify any odor. You start to pick up signals from everything and everyone about you, thinking that everybody is after you, doubting reality and the intentions behind everything. Familiar faces become patterned. Everything seems unreal and bizarre in some way.
Cognitive performance is a crucial gauge considering psychosis, the majority experience it. Things like memory, spatial reasoning, processing speed, and vocabulary are affected significantly during the process, exhibiting deficits across cognitive tasks that will lead the person to become disoriented and paranoid.
Distorted reality includes sensory experiences and false beliefs that change the interaction between the person and his surroundings. Of course, it could come in various forms, visual, auditory, olfactory, gustatory, and tactile perceptions, and it will often cause the individual to panic. Your mind relays signals differently, and you become overwhelmed with the amount of activity happening inside your head.
Inappropriate behavior is bound to happen, which might include strange and dangerous acts that a person might perform during the episode. And they might pose a danger to themselves or others. Loss of interest in activities and personal care like hygiene might occur, also the person would usually act cold and detached, having an inability to express any sort of emotions, the behavior exhibited will most likely become vague due to the impaired memory aspect and the person might not remember their behavior afterward during the recovery phase.
Incoherency is caused by confused thinking; it comprises symptoms such as slowed and unusual movement, and disorganized speech patterns, as there is a relationship between psychosis and source memory which leads to a deficit in the self-attributing process. The speech can be coherent inside the psychotic mind, but in context, it is not.
A psychotic episode could be terrifying. It could last from days to months if not treated. The mania accompanied by it would still have its effects on you during the recovery phase, you might remember the symptoms and feel horrible about it, but you shouldn’t be. Yes, it will change you and make you a different person, maybe to become better or worse, and you might remember the bad days associated with it, or you might become more creative and discover different depths of this life, but rest assured that there are people who will be there for you and that you will never be alone.
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